Im stuck at work for another two hours. Why did I volunteer to stay the extra two hours. True its only two hours, but its 10PM and these kids have been pissing me off for hours and I just want to go home. (as a side not I have no internet at work so when youre actually reading this itll be a few hours after my writing it) I want to go home have a beer, smoke a bit, and watch the History Channel. Its bad when Im at the point that just one day at work, with only three kids can really stress me out. Nothing really happened today. In comparison to previous weeks it was an exceedingly easy day. Its just Ive been in this environment for to long. Time to put more effort into the job search.
At least today I was smart enough to bring my computer, hopefully the battery lasts another couple of hours. I want to write. I always have these amazing ideas for short stories. I even start writing them from time to time, I just cant sit long enough to finish them. My mind wont ever stop racing. Music helps, but only to a degree.
Ive been thinking a lot about an ex lately. She was the nicest person I ever knew. We obviously didnt work out. I was having a really bad time with my anxiety and being a dick to her. We also had very different outlooks on life. I just wish I knew how she was doing. I have a lot of guilt for the shit she went through due to me and my anxiety. Im sure shes doing great.
I wish I could pick out the turning points in my life. Sure, everything that has happened has had some affect on who I have become. Some I bet have more of an affect though, and Id like to know what they were. I bet the most important things are little things I dont even remember happening.
Well this whole thing has taken a depressing turn. Well, I suppose it started of depressing to begin with. I just remember I have some History Channel specials saved on here, maybe Ill watch one. I am such a dork.
That didnt last long. It was making me sleepy. I need caffeine. Just checked, no soda or coffee anywhere in the house. Well I guess this is starting to give you a glimpse of what my work is like between 10PM and 12AM. This is the only time its like this when Im here. All my normal scheduled hours the kids are awake. But yeah, this part is super easy. I still just want to get home. Its weird. Im up here with nothing to do but I still cant de-stress because Im here and cant do what I want.
Ok so playing a game on my computer for 10 minutes took more then an hour of battery.
Ugh, almost there. Twenties minutes to go. Thats of course if my relief shows up on time. Which more often then that does not happen. For some reason right now Im really craving a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Something to look forward to tonight.
So I just got home... and found out my Granny is in the hospital. Shes been falling down a lot lately. I guess fell today and was hurting pretty bad so they took her to the hospital. I always tell myself I need to spend more time with her. I feel so guilty that I never do...
At least today I was smart enough to bring my computer, hopefully the battery lasts another couple of hours. I want to write. I always have these amazing ideas for short stories. I even start writing them from time to time, I just cant sit long enough to finish them. My mind wont ever stop racing. Music helps, but only to a degree.
Ive been thinking a lot about an ex lately. She was the nicest person I ever knew. We obviously didnt work out. I was having a really bad time with my anxiety and being a dick to her. We also had very different outlooks on life. I just wish I knew how she was doing. I have a lot of guilt for the shit she went through due to me and my anxiety. Im sure shes doing great.
I wish I could pick out the turning points in my life. Sure, everything that has happened has had some affect on who I have become. Some I bet have more of an affect though, and Id like to know what they were. I bet the most important things are little things I dont even remember happening.
Well this whole thing has taken a depressing turn. Well, I suppose it started of depressing to begin with. I just remember I have some History Channel specials saved on here, maybe Ill watch one. I am such a dork.
That didnt last long. It was making me sleepy. I need caffeine. Just checked, no soda or coffee anywhere in the house. Well I guess this is starting to give you a glimpse of what my work is like between 10PM and 12AM. This is the only time its like this when Im here. All my normal scheduled hours the kids are awake. But yeah, this part is super easy. I still just want to get home. Its weird. Im up here with nothing to do but I still cant de-stress because Im here and cant do what I want.
Ok so playing a game on my computer for 10 minutes took more then an hour of battery.
Ugh, almost there. Twenties minutes to go. Thats of course if my relief shows up on time. Which more often then that does not happen. For some reason right now Im really craving a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Something to look forward to tonight.
So I just got home... and found out my Granny is in the hospital. Shes been falling down a lot lately. I guess fell today and was hurting pretty bad so they took her to the hospital. I always tell myself I need to spend more time with her. I feel so guilty that I never do...
cassy:
then do. you can never take it back.