the_monster

i'm not sure where this post will go, just feel like writing. i've had a lot on my mind lately. i guess that's the benefit of being sick and therefore having a lot of time sitting around. i have no idea where my life is going. that's not a bad thing. just an observation. sometimes i see myself sticking with what i'm doing. not at the same house but maybe working my way around the bridge or at least staying in residential. then other times i figure i should really get some use out of my degree. but what to do with a criminology degree when you know that you no longer want to work for the government? other times i feel like i'd just like to switch jobs whenever i get bored and try as many different things as possible. but i think when it comes down to it, i have this need to be in a job where i am helping people.
then there is the matter of where i choose to live. part of me wants to find somewhere i really fit in. somewhere where there are a lot more people i can identify with. other times i want to keep moving around to different places that are totally different and experience as much as possible. the awesome thing for that is you can get my job anywhere, even in this economy. other times i feel like i could never leave her. i am so close with my family and especially my cousins. we're all each others best friends and i have so much fun going out with them:

and i love the worcester area. who knows. i'm up for whatever.
i have all these plans. but can't possibly live them all. is it ok to let what happens happen? why do i need a life plan? i like just going with the wind.