the_monster

wow, that last blog was depressing (i hate the word blog, but yet i still use it.... oh well). oh well, sometimes anxiety shit happens.. at least its a limited event. but yeah, so sunday besides the mental fuckup was a very good day. after some delay to the weather me and ravioli were able to get together. she drove up this way and we ditched her car at the bookstore (as is our usual routine). we decided we wanted food, and as is typical for us we wanted both breakfast and beer. the solution came in the form of a fine establishment known as armesby abbey. ive been meaning to get there since they opened but had thus far failed (which is sad seeing as its 20 minutes from my house). so i got a veggie quiche and she got this massive french toast (which she actually gave half to me, haha) and we both got beer. she got an oatmeal stout and i got never summer. very typical beer for both of us. we are both in agreement we need to return soon and often.
we then went to jellys a record/cd store. where she found a set of records of 40s music. she totally geeked out about it and it made me super happy cause it was amazingly cute. we then went to my house, she kicked my ass in cribbage, but then i got her the second time. we had coffee, and headed back to her car.
this is a very brief summary.
monday i picked up a shift. time-and-a-half is nice. but it was a great day at work. i had a lot of paperwork to do so i spent a lot of time in the office. i drove the van around some too, which is nice and relaxing for me. theres a new girl (client, not staff) whos a very funny and positive person and is really bringing up the mood of the whole house. i really like working with this age/population. i think i might try and get a part time thing at one of the local youth centers.
more and more i realize i really love this city. i used to be in such a rush to get out. now i dont mind if i stay around for a while. its fun, its a different kind of city. there is no use explaining.
also, i hate when people i havent seen or talked to in years approach me and start talking to me. its awkward and makes me extremely uncomfortable. a wave would be fine. if we havent talked since that time we shared a 40oz freshmen year of college or a juice box in 2nd grade then theres probably a reason. so dont start talking to me like im your best friend. i know people lose touch. but i dont let many people get close to me. im very much a loner. so if i do consider you close i wont lose touch with you. friends, for someone like me who has few, are more valuable and i keep in touch. i dunno, random rant.