the_monster

some times i feel like i've outgrown my mental shit. other days i feel like everyone has the same shit. somedays something happens and reminds me i have whatever. and then somedays just remind me that it's all about absolutely nothing and is in no way rational. in a way i'm proud of how well i take care of my shit. like they told me when i was first told of these chemical fuckups in my head, it's something you've always had and always will have and the best you can do is learn how to manage it. and i have. but sometimes i can't help it. i'm usually really good at accepting it and remembering i'm still so much better off then so many people. but others i can't help but be pissed at how unfair it is. always at the worse times. always.