the_monster

i'm happy. works fun even if it's pretty stressful. i'm making some awesome friends here. i'm getting closer with some of my family members, not that there was anything between us. and i'm making some good plans for the coming months.

something i've been thinking about a lot lately. i'm 22. i've graduated college. have a full time job. i pretty much qualify as a full fledged adult now. yes, i live at home, but it's not like i'm stuck in the basement, my house is two whole houses stuck together and currently is occupied by me, my parents, my dads parents, and my two sisters... but still i have my own space. so back to the topic, i'm pretty much a full time adult now. why doesn't it feel like it? growing up i always thought that life would feel so different after i was done with school and had a job. thought i'd suddenly have a house in the suburbs, a wife, 2.5 kids, and a white picket fence. other the past years i came to realize that's not me. tattooed, bearded pierced me will never be a normal suburb dweller... but still i feel like nothing has changed. instead of school full time i work full time but otherwise i do all the same shit, i hang out, i goof off on-line, i masturbate a bit to often, i read comics, i play video games, and i get drunk with my cousins and we dare each other to do stupid shit. and it's been about a year so i know this isn't just a delay in my development. is this wrong? am i missing something? i'm not complaining. i love it. i just feel like maybe i've somehow skipped the last step of growing up.