i don't really know what i want to write. i just figure i should write something a bit more positive. overall i'm a pretty happy person. i don't think my life is ideal and i don't think it's bad. i don't think anyone's is either. it's just a fun journey, if you're not enjoying it's time for a change. now i know it's not that simple but it's a good over arching theory. speaking of life advice i don't think people should give life advice. what's easy for some people might be horribly difficult for someone else. take for example people telling me i should just go out and meet new people, by doing something like going to parties or whatever. well i can't. it literally feels like my brain is tearing apart when i'm in a situation like that. but then there's the fact that i'm really good at entertaining myself and i don't see how it's so hard for some people but i know it is. basically there is no advice someone can give you to better or fix your life, do what you feel is right, if it's not try again. what a weird rant that was.
i feel like i go through my life backwards. i was never a kid to read comics or anything and now it's my number one source of entertainment. i bore my friends to death with tales of the multiverse and other various ultra geeky things. haha i love it.
so i don't know if i ever wrote much about my job here. not that more then a few people read this. but anyways for the past 2 months i have been a residential counselor. specifically for teens with behavioral and mental health problems. up to ten, currently eight, kids live in this house. my job is to basically do what a parent would do. i listen to them when they need someone to talk too. i help them work through their own problems (not provide solutions), i occasionally cook (well not anymore after i set off the fire alarm and the fire department showed up). i even play video games with them. it's not an easy job. these kids are often victims of abuse and can be really difficult and even violent (i'm trained to defend myself and restrain them if they try to hurt themselves or others). but in the end it's very enjoyable. i feel good about what i do. i'm making a difference, and have fast become a favorite staff of several of the kids. i get payed to do something i'd do for free. i work weird hours that work nicely for me. i don't remember where i was going with this.....
i feel like i go through my life backwards. i was never a kid to read comics or anything and now it's my number one source of entertainment. i bore my friends to death with tales of the multiverse and other various ultra geeky things. haha i love it.
so i don't know if i ever wrote much about my job here. not that more then a few people read this. but anyways for the past 2 months i have been a residential counselor. specifically for teens with behavioral and mental health problems. up to ten, currently eight, kids live in this house. my job is to basically do what a parent would do. i listen to them when they need someone to talk too. i help them work through their own problems (not provide solutions), i occasionally cook (well not anymore after i set off the fire alarm and the fire department showed up). i even play video games with them. it's not an easy job. these kids are often victims of abuse and can be really difficult and even violent (i'm trained to defend myself and restrain them if they try to hurt themselves or others). but in the end it's very enjoyable. i feel good about what i do. i'm making a difference, and have fast become a favorite staff of several of the kids. i get payed to do something i'd do for free. i work weird hours that work nicely for me. i don't remember where i was going with this.....
about life advice, you gotta be you. if you're not comfortable in larger social situations, then don't force it upon yourself.
i think most of the time people give advice because they want to help someone. i've had people give me advice and act like a friend one day, later to find out "they never liked me" and thought i was a bitch. it's the inet you know? like a box of chocolates you never know what you'll get.
truth is, i have some fantastic friends i've met online, ones that have been close for years, and who have been there for me in a sense just as much as my physical friends. just depends on how lucky u get and i feel lucky
anyhow...life is not ideal for anyone, it's just this journey we're all on, this learning curve...i feel that the challenges i face day to day are always teaching me lessons about how to be more patient, or more kind. sometimes it makes me crazy, but it always makes me stronger and better....in the long run. anyhow have a good week