the_monster

i'm feeling pretty good. it's amazing what finally having a full-time job is doing for me. it may be dumb but it makes me feel like a real adult. i'm self sufficient without having to worry about making enough money from week to week, sure the pays not amazing, but it's steady and it's enough. i also feel good about what i'm doing. also i don't get drug tested, which is odd for this job. but good, 'cause bad or not smoking from time to time did wonders for my anxiety and i had quit for so long when i was applying for all those government jobs. i was never much of a smoker but every once and a while it did wonders for me and it'll be nice to have that again. speaking of substances it's nice having the money to go out to bars again.
i've also been having a much greater sense of self lately. i know who i am, and i'm happy with who i am. it's a nice change of pace. next step is to meet someone nice to spend my time with. but yeah, it's rare for me to say this, life is feeling good and comfortable.