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I realize that I worry too much about what others think of me. Not so much in a physical sense, but more in a sense of WHAT people think of me....ie. When I talk, when I make certain actions, or when I do or don't do things. This factor has been weighing me down for a number of years, and I'm ready to change that. How can I move on with life, if my entire life is based off my fear of what others think. I do everything to please everyone, and vise versa. It would be nice for once to do something for myself.

In retrospect, I have done many things for myself....but there's always an outside motivation, perspective. etc

I realize I need to lose some people I hang out with. So far, I've gotten half-way there. There are some I really don't want to let go of, but there attitudes lately have been extremley questionable.

I'm sick of feeling like Grant is my father. "Oh what will Grant think?" "If I don't do this, he'll be upset at me." You know what? Fuck all that shit. As long as my bills are paid on time...and I'm functioning, fuck everyone else.

Friends shouldn't make friends feel this way.