I am here. "Home." Tucson.
I feel good because I know my landlord, boss and friends are ok. I no longer feel like I am screwing anyone over anymore.
But I feel empty. Lonley. Depressed. Lost. ALONE. My heart isn't here. I'll give it a few days....but I'm hurting. The people I've put a lot of emotional investment into are 100 miles away from me now and I can't do a fucking thing about it.
I feel helpless.
Mute.
Torn.
I thought this life down here was everything for me. I thought this was it. And now I'm here, fufilling everyone else's dreams, yet I don't feel it's mine.
I wonder what it will be like to wake up for the first time in two weeks, without someone laying next to me. Someone to kiss my forehead when I wake up. Someone to hug me and make love with. *Le Sigh* Someone to make me laugh and smile.
Tonight is going to be the lonliest. But I'll get through it.
I hate feeling empty.
I feel good because I know my landlord, boss and friends are ok. I no longer feel like I am screwing anyone over anymore.
But I feel empty. Lonley. Depressed. Lost. ALONE. My heart isn't here. I'll give it a few days....but I'm hurting. The people I've put a lot of emotional investment into are 100 miles away from me now and I can't do a fucking thing about it.
I feel helpless.
Mute.
Torn.
I thought this life down here was everything for me. I thought this was it. And now I'm here, fufilling everyone else's dreams, yet I don't feel it's mine.
I wonder what it will be like to wake up for the first time in two weeks, without someone laying next to me. Someone to kiss my forehead when I wake up. Someone to hug me and make love with. *Le Sigh* Someone to make me laugh and smile.
Tonight is going to be the lonliest. But I'll get through it.
I hate feeling empty.
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and you are in our thoughts. I'm sure he's going crazy without you.
i know i am.
it will all work out, one can only hope.
love you.