I was getting all introspective-ish, and kind of down on my world, but a comment on facebook turne my frown upside down, at least a little bit.
In a few hours it will be the 31st anniversary of my arrival on this planet, and it's been a pretty good ride so far, and I really can't wait to see where it goes from here. Like any moment such as this I think I can go ahead and feel a little bit on the sad side or at least it's understandable, even though I try not to be that way. I think it just kind of piles up a little when you actually take in what your age now is and whether you have accomplished what you thought you would have by now.
I like my life a lot and there are aspects of it that I love, but I don't love all of it and I think that is something that is weighing on me, but I am slowly turning that into inspiration. The things that I don't quite love are things that I can work on, and I am figuring that out and figuring out what steps to take. I stumble as I do so, and I try to remember that stumbling is not something that needs be dibilitating but sould be learned from.
The fact that the majority of my friends live hundreds of miles away is something that adds to it, because I would like nothing more than going out with a group of them, getting some chow, and then hitting a bar, like we did back when I lived over in the midst of them. That is my perfect birthday, I have my folks here and it's nice to be around them, but that is more a holiday thing than a birthday thing, birthday's are more friend type things. So that weighs on me a bit.
I am sure that I will hear from some, get text's from other's, and even facebook comments from random people I know, and that will be nice, but I would love to have a few drinks with my friends. I guss I just need to use this as another cattle prod to the ass of my ambition of figuring out how to get out of dodge and where I want to be.
Please don't take this as a cry for coddling me and myemotions, it's just on the top of my head and it helps to get it out there.
In a few hours it will be the 31st anniversary of my arrival on this planet, and it's been a pretty good ride so far, and I really can't wait to see where it goes from here. Like any moment such as this I think I can go ahead and feel a little bit on the sad side or at least it's understandable, even though I try not to be that way. I think it just kind of piles up a little when you actually take in what your age now is and whether you have accomplished what you thought you would have by now.
I like my life a lot and there are aspects of it that I love, but I don't love all of it and I think that is something that is weighing on me, but I am slowly turning that into inspiration. The things that I don't quite love are things that I can work on, and I am figuring that out and figuring out what steps to take. I stumble as I do so, and I try to remember that stumbling is not something that needs be dibilitating but sould be learned from.
The fact that the majority of my friends live hundreds of miles away is something that adds to it, because I would like nothing more than going out with a group of them, getting some chow, and then hitting a bar, like we did back when I lived over in the midst of them. That is my perfect birthday, I have my folks here and it's nice to be around them, but that is more a holiday thing than a birthday thing, birthday's are more friend type things. So that weighs on me a bit.
I am sure that I will hear from some, get text's from other's, and even facebook comments from random people I know, and that will be nice, but I would love to have a few drinks with my friends. I guss I just need to use this as another cattle prod to the ass of my ambition of figuring out how to get out of dodge and where I want to be.
Please don't take this as a cry for coddling me and myemotions, it's just on the top of my head and it helps to get it out there.
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I need sleep these days more than ever. I hate it. I want to thrive on very little sleep. Ech. Maybe someday.
Fun I will have. That's the only thing I am certain of. It is the rest I am worried about.