the_matt79

Observations and idiosyncracies

That kind of sums life up right now, I observe to much and have characteristic peculiarities, that's about right.

I observe because it's fun and it is something that will aid me later in life, but I don't throw myself in there as much as I should, and that has to be combatted. I tend to tell myself that I will get to it once I move, but I don't know when that will be (hopefully in the next year once finances and the like are sorted out). It is good to have something to look forward to, but I sometimes feel that all I do is look forward, when next to me and behind me are good too. Basically the here and now would be good to experience instead of building up what might be down the road, although it will be awesome in the future, dude they have flying cars, come on!!

I need to stop distracting myself so that I can get my eyes on the prize, start setting up things in my life as a reward rather than a regularity, then I will have something to work toward. This may sound like a normality for many of you, but I somehow made it this far without figuring all of this out, but somehow I have, and have done pretty well so far, swimmingly even. I just need to re-structure some things in my life and how I get things done, that way I will have the successes that I know I will one day have. Not to sound cocky or anything, but I have always felt that I was destined for something more, something more than my hometown and all of that, so yeah I gotta get that figure out.

I think I need a nap or something because this started out much more clearly in my head than it does on here.

If I get that structure moving forward I suppose I will need to withhold myself from this wonderful site, one of those reward type situations right?