the_matt79

I am trying to figure out why I can't follow my own advice.

I am the friend that is there to talk to, that seems to be able to help when friends need helped. I listen to problems and say what makes sense to me, or simpy talk them through what they are dealing with. These conversations usually wind up with them feeling better and me feeling good that I was able to help.

I love that I am able to be that guy for my friends and I wonder why I don't naturally deal with life's hiccups as it would seem I should be able to. I don't have a lot of huge problems in my life, but all to often I have pile of little one that should have been easily dealt with and passed by. Perhaps the mere size of the problems is what keeps me in the position I am in, they sneak up on me. My problem solving skills aren't something that spring into action like I would hope they do, but if I sit down and brood on it I get it all figured out.

I still am left wondering why I can't live a simple life where I could go into autopilot on things like that, I suppose it has something to do with learning from life, which I am a big fan of. I strive to be constantly learning as I feel I am wasting my time here if I am not learning. I might learn one of the most mundane things ever, or it might be a fascinaing bit of trivia, either make me happy. It is things like this that make me remember that going into autopilot might make me miss out on something like this, and because of that I will continue to push my way through, to think my way out, and pull myself up.