Trying to get my priorities straight.
I figure I am 30 so it's time for me to hunker down and figure out what exactly I need to do with me and my life and seperate that from what I want to do. Now I hope to combine the two into an awesome amalgamation of wondrous opportunities, but I have decided that I need to at least make sure and decide what is most important in the here and now which can lead to things down the road.
I have come up with two things that are the most important in the here and now, first and foremost is my thesis, something that I have let hang over my head for far, far to long and I am combating that, obviously not as we speak since I am writing this righ now. I can see a light at the end of a tunnel and by working on it I believe that I am no longer waiting for the light to run me down, but rather I am sprinting towards it, trying to figure out what exactly it is, and why it shines a light on me. You see that's the possibilty of things, and I am glad to be looking at possibilities instead of daunting tasks.
The second thing that I have deemed the most important is my health, not that I am unhealthy, but I have picked some of my unhealthy eating habits back up, and I do not wish to have those with me for all time. It is a little hard to stick to the plan since I live in a house that has various snacks within it at all times, so I have to get the old self control up and running again, I had it in spades a little over a year ago and just need to reclaim that. Then on top of that there is some exercising to do that would make me feel just that much better about myself and have me bright and shiny like I know I can be.
So tonight's experiment is to prove to myself that I don't have to live by he TV's schedule, that if I don't watch "my shows" it will not signal the end of the world, but rather it will open up more possibilities of reading and writing that get the old brain box a going which in turn gets me to thinking about the future, something that I really want to do. My present isn't so bad, but my future deserves more, so dammit I will make sure it gets better.
That's what is pre-occupying my head, and that's ok.
I figure I am 30 so it's time for me to hunker down and figure out what exactly I need to do with me and my life and seperate that from what I want to do. Now I hope to combine the two into an awesome amalgamation of wondrous opportunities, but I have decided that I need to at least make sure and decide what is most important in the here and now which can lead to things down the road.
I have come up with two things that are the most important in the here and now, first and foremost is my thesis, something that I have let hang over my head for far, far to long and I am combating that, obviously not as we speak since I am writing this righ now. I can see a light at the end of a tunnel and by working on it I believe that I am no longer waiting for the light to run me down, but rather I am sprinting towards it, trying to figure out what exactly it is, and why it shines a light on me. You see that's the possibilty of things, and I am glad to be looking at possibilities instead of daunting tasks.
The second thing that I have deemed the most important is my health, not that I am unhealthy, but I have picked some of my unhealthy eating habits back up, and I do not wish to have those with me for all time. It is a little hard to stick to the plan since I live in a house that has various snacks within it at all times, so I have to get the old self control up and running again, I had it in spades a little over a year ago and just need to reclaim that. Then on top of that there is some exercising to do that would make me feel just that much better about myself and have me bright and shiny like I know I can be.
So tonight's experiment is to prove to myself that I don't have to live by he TV's schedule, that if I don't watch "my shows" it will not signal the end of the world, but rather it will open up more possibilities of reading and writing that get the old brain box a going which in turn gets me to thinking about the future, something that I really want to do. My present isn't so bad, but my future deserves more, so dammit I will make sure it gets better.
That's what is pre-occupying my head, and that's ok.
but I think I'll always live by the tv schedule..!.