the_matt79

Well it's a new year, and I am now 29, but yet I am still living the exact same life I was living last year. I start to wonder why the hell I can't just get off my ass and do something with my time, things that need to be done, things that I want to do to further myself on this rock we call Earth. Then another day goes by, I watch TV, sleep, and then go to work.

I try to blame it all on working the night shift, which has something to do with it, but not everything. Working 11-7 really sucks because when you get home you feel like winding down before you hit the hay, but then you wake up in the afternoon and it feels like half the day is gone and you don't feel like doing anything then either. Hopefully they are going to put up some new jobs soon and I can get onto afternoons at least, get back into sleeping when it is dark out, what a concept right?

I do have some things to look forward to this year, my tax return should be pretty big, that whole rebate thing for being a taxpayer won't suck (as long as congress can agree on what/how to do it, and in April I will find out if they are going to take the rod out of my leg, and if so then I will have that done, get a little time off of work, and then when I have my full Dr. release I can settle up with my employer. See the rod in my leg is becasue of an accident at work involving faulty equipment on their part.

That is what I live my life for, the pay days, I need to start living for the fucking moment, or however they describe it to us in our formative years. Maybe I am this way because I have always seen my folks work for the pay check. Granted they do have their social scenes, and they have all their projects they get done as well, but like me they are procrastinators, just maybe not as bad as I.

I don't know we haven't quite gone through one month this year yet, so I should be able to turn it around. God I hope I turn it around.