Sometimes the world is a very strange place, even stranger than normal. Sometimes a voice from the past resurrects itself and suddenly feels like the future. Sometimes too many good possibilities seem to pop up all at once, so you start to get a little nervous and twitchy and people at work are all like "dude, lay of the crack" and your only response is let your eye twitch a few more times than normal.
She and I haven't spoken in roughly 6 years. We simply lost contact with one another. Not completely for lack of trying, however. Though I think I managed not to cross over into creepy stalker land, I think I may have been closer to the border than I really wanted to be a couple of times. Then BAm! out of nowhere she finds me and we're gonna hang out this weekend, and all I really want, all I've wanted for the last 6 years really, is to either come to terms with the fact that I can't let go, or to get closure and quit wondering about things over which I have absolutely no control. And then theres another another lady from my past who keeps saying shes changed and wantes to see where things will go, and I just don't have the heart to tell her that I really don't see it working. We have opposing views on WAAAAY to many things including, oh, I don't know, when I'm in a relationship I tend NOT to sleep with other people, and I think that one may be a bit hard for her to accept.
Then theres the movies. Super low budget, no name, have to order from some guys basement kinda movies (no, not that, they kicked out the guy that wated to do that) but you know what? If we can start making even close to what what our shit jobs are paying us (and hollywood money it ain't) then fuck it lets go for it, right?
and on top of all that, I really need to read the second trade of the WEalking dead series.
More randoms thoughts at another random date and time.
Matty "The Mad T."
She and I haven't spoken in roughly 6 years. We simply lost contact with one another. Not completely for lack of trying, however. Though I think I managed not to cross over into creepy stalker land, I think I may have been closer to the border than I really wanted to be a couple of times. Then BAm! out of nowhere she finds me and we're gonna hang out this weekend, and all I really want, all I've wanted for the last 6 years really, is to either come to terms with the fact that I can't let go, or to get closure and quit wondering about things over which I have absolutely no control. And then theres another another lady from my past who keeps saying shes changed and wantes to see where things will go, and I just don't have the heart to tell her that I really don't see it working. We have opposing views on WAAAAY to many things including, oh, I don't know, when I'm in a relationship I tend NOT to sleep with other people, and I think that one may be a bit hard for her to accept.
Then theres the movies. Super low budget, no name, have to order from some guys basement kinda movies (no, not that, they kicked out the guy that wated to do that) but you know what? If we can start making even close to what what our shit jobs are paying us (and hollywood money it ain't) then fuck it lets go for it, right?
and on top of all that, I really need to read the second trade of the WEalking dead series.
More randoms thoughts at another random date and time.
Matty "The Mad T."
tikki:
Which girls are these i wonder