the_gentleman

I just spent 3 hours walking the town with my step mom. She really is an amazing lady, despite all of the things going on. She's really gotten me excited about my life. We talked alot about what's been on my mind...Mostly about a move I want to make. She's behind me completely. She believes it could possibly be the best thing I could do right now. We talked about making it work, what I had to do to get there, and that it'd be alot of work.

We talked about life and what each of us wants out of it. We talked about my dad, what they're going through, and that they're working through it. She really is a fabulous lady and wants nothing but the best for me...I'm starting to run into people like that. People that have my needs and feelings in their minds.

I'm happy, oh god I'm happy. I have, well talk to...not have, a fabulous girl. I have a wonderful family, with its faults. And I have an entire life of exciting things ahead.

It's fun now...waking up every morning. It didn't used to be this way. I dreaded it actually...But now, I can't wait for the next day.

I'm growing up...as stupid as it sounds, I am. I think I want to study psychology, because of a conversation Kourt and I had, that continued into a conversation my step mom and I had.

"What happens when you have nothing to live for? What happens when there's no longer a point?" (Basically concerning the whole "Dying of a broken heart" phenomena, and the relationship between feelings and health, etc.)

I want to figure that out...Maybe it will do someone some good.

I feel passionate about life and the things in it. It's ridiculous, but it's amazing.

I owe it all to the people around me, and to myself. I love you guys.