Wednesday Jun 23, 2004

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Blarg. I really like this class, but holy crap, I wish it was at a different time. I hate riding the train 9:30 at night. Creepy people inhabit it then. This guy wouldn't leave me alone and said that I "smelled good" and that he liked my hair...Then starting asking me questions about my tongue piercing and whether or not my boyfriend like it...This guy, mind you, looked to be about in his 60's or 70's...I mean, my green hair is expected to attract attention, but...EEWWWW! puke

Anyway, off to Portland to buy the book for my class...It finally came in, and it's at some store that's in the middle of downtown versus where students normally buy books. Somehow, I know that I'm going to get completely lost. *sigh* If only I weren't directionally challenged. frown

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I hope I don't stay up till 6am like i did last night/this morning.......I feel so drained in every sense of the word.

This is me:

Bllllaaaaalllaaaaaahhhh.........

ZOMBIFIED FROM LACK OF SLEEP!!! skull

Did I mention I find very strange things funny around this point? Like for instance, my mom leaving me a message telling me my older brother (my only sibling, mind you) is in the hospital because of his diabetes and the fact that he might have kidney failure. Kidney dialisis is a very serious problem for diabetics...and my brother might have it at the ripe 'ol age of 21.

After I had my crazy laughing fit in the car, I broke down crying and couldn't stop...

And the boi, of course, is asleep. Looks like I will be facing yet another goddamned problem on my own.

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My mom...never sounded so utterly sad on the phone...

Please...please don't let my brother die...I don't know what I will do if he leaves...

I...I don't know what to do...

Please, Travis...you can't die on me...There's so much left for you to do here in this world.

Please...

~T.C
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tristen:
you said "After I had my crazy laughing fit in the car, I broke down crying and couldn't stop..."

lack of sleep will do that too you, get some rest sweetie. I hope your brother gets the best care they have, but you can't deal with something like that on -23hrs of sleep
mechanicalmonkey:
Its one of the hardest things any parent will ever have to go through. I should know I was 5 when my bro died, Aparently I was there when he died but I don't really remember that. And my dad somehow performed CPR on my little bro.

I wish you the best of luck. Is he up here or down there with your fam? Either way it sucks. Take the time to go and visit him I'm sure your Prof won't care. He'll get better.

[Edited on Jun 24, 2004 7:39AM]

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