the_captain

So today SUCKS! Just got home from the memorial service for my co-worker. I can't believe how weak I have become these last few years. It was really difficult to hold back tears. This has never been a problem for me before. I can always beat down those feelings until I'm alone but I'm afraid I let some tears out. I hope no one saw me. I don't understand why it's harder then it used to be and I don't like it! I just want to be the strong man that I've always been, but ever since I lost my dad it seems so much harder. I thought it would actually get easier. Wrong. Hope you all are doing better. I'm gonna go drown my feelings!