So I went to this bar last night with my sister to see this band and after the band is done this girl starts talking to me. Then we left and went to a party with one of our friends. I didn't know anybody there so I was just sitting on this couch in this room pretty much alone. Well the same girl ends up showing up to the party and comes over and sits down by me and we start talking some more. then like 5 minutes after that a bunch of people come in the room and start playing music, but when they finally stop we talk a little more. Well near the end of the night she gets up for a little bit just as my sister comes in, and she sits down where the girl was. Then my sister says we're going to leave, so what did I do? I got up and left that house without saying another word to the girl. No goodbye. Nothing.
I feel like a total asshole for that and the worst part is, I was really digging her and she was actually into me. She was really cute and cool. I would have loved to talk to her more and I'm sure I could have if I had just said goodbye and got her number.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?
Maybe I should just stay home all the time so I can't fuck up the things that could better my life.
Having nothing hurts a lot less than always losing everything.
Edit: I think I should consider the possibility that I might be bipolar
I feel like a total asshole for that and the worst part is, I was really digging her and she was actually into me. She was really cute and cool. I would have loved to talk to her more and I'm sure I could have if I had just said goodbye and got her number.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?
Maybe I should just stay home all the time so I can't fuck up the things that could better my life.
Having nothing hurts a lot less than always losing everything.
Edit: I think I should consider the possibility that I might be bipolar

maybe you'll run into her again sometime!
think positive handsome!
There's nothing wrong with you dood. I do stuff like that all the fucking time. Sometimes I think that the person wouldn't care wether or not I say goodbye, or I just get too nervous and don't want to deal with an awkward exchange of phone numbers. It's totally normal. Don't worry about it