thatwhichisnot

Continuing from my last post, my mind is still awakened. I am absorbing information. Most of what I have learned is that most people are even more lonely than I am. I don't know what to say about this. I feel pretty lost and uncertain thinking about all that emptyness in all those people's hearts, and I feel pretty lucky to be better off than I thought I was. It has become reafirmed that I am an actual person. Given what I have been seeing, that almost makes me feel more alone. Either some mutation in our being is impending, or else we are in a great deal of trouble.

I have only one thing to ask of you. Be actual. That's all. Don't try to act cool. Don't tell white lies. Don't pretend that things aren't as they are. Knowing where we are is the first step to going where we want to go. Far too many people are not actual. I know why I keep going to sleep. It is horrible to see this.