okay, this morning i feel about a million times better. had a really good chat with 11 and got some good advice and took it. thanks 11.
thanks guys for all the nice comments, i was just mainly feeling sorry for myself, didn't want to lose a good thing. but ya know what? my troubles were aleviated by an email first thing this morning. the dreaded event was averted because it didn't exist. i blow things way out of proportion sometimes. especially when the dreaded PMS demon strikes.
i just need to do some reflecting and soul searching i think. i've got a lot of thoughts swimming in my head that i can't quite seem to compile properly and even more emotions coursing through my body. sometimes my heart just aches. there are so many things i want to do, i just feel like i've waisted a lot of time on foolish things.
a nice big fat drug addiction and a lousy husband ruined my early 20s and as for the later 20s, they are confusing. i'm in that restless place right now. don't know where i want to go or why i want to go, just want to go.
does anyone else feel this way?? am i just nuts?
don't know anymore, almost don't care. make sense??
probably not.
this is a really long drawn out journal entry for me, so i'm gonna go now.
thanks again everybody. have a jolly day.
i am eternally yours d.
11_11
xoxo thalia
p.s. new pic coming up, since everyone seems to like these, here ya' go.
okay, so i have this great little book call "The Book of Questions". it's this little (literally) with all kinds of moral questions and hypothetical situations and of course you are supposed to answer them and perhaps ask other people you know. so anyway, first question:
(oddly enough!)
1. for a person you loved deeply, would you be willing to move to a distant country knowing there would be little chance of seeing your friends or family again?
feel free to answer.
my answer: hell yes
thanks guys for all the nice comments, i was just mainly feeling sorry for myself, didn't want to lose a good thing. but ya know what? my troubles were aleviated by an email first thing this morning. the dreaded event was averted because it didn't exist. i blow things way out of proportion sometimes. especially when the dreaded PMS demon strikes.
i just need to do some reflecting and soul searching i think. i've got a lot of thoughts swimming in my head that i can't quite seem to compile properly and even more emotions coursing through my body. sometimes my heart just aches. there are so many things i want to do, i just feel like i've waisted a lot of time on foolish things.
a nice big fat drug addiction and a lousy husband ruined my early 20s and as for the later 20s, they are confusing. i'm in that restless place right now. don't know where i want to go or why i want to go, just want to go.
does anyone else feel this way?? am i just nuts?
don't know anymore, almost don't care. make sense??
probably not.
this is a really long drawn out journal entry for me, so i'm gonna go now.
thanks again everybody. have a jolly day.
i am eternally yours d.
11_11
xoxo thalia
p.s. new pic coming up, since everyone seems to like these, here ya' go.
okay, so i have this great little book call "The Book of Questions". it's this little (literally) with all kinds of moral questions and hypothetical situations and of course you are supposed to answer them and perhaps ask other people you know. so anyway, first question:
(oddly enough!)
1. for a person you loved deeply, would you be willing to move to a distant country knowing there would be little chance of seeing your friends or family again?
feel free to answer.
my answer: hell yes
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the editted bit more than made up for the crippling blow to my ego by your first comment.
kidding.
but i did the big move for someone once already. it was awesome for the first year or so. but after we started to realize that we didn't know each other -- i was already commited.
in the end its been worth it. i've got a rockin' son and rockin' new friends (not just the virtual kind either).
but realistically -- one of the drawbacks to meeting people onilne is that we can present any type of persona that we wish. online i'm able to flirt and chat people up in ways i'd never be able to do in person.
my only point is that if you do it...don't look back. but if it doesn't work out -- don't look back either. you'll never know till you try.
but i will tell you this -- its much easier for non-citizens to find gainful employment in this country then it is the other way around...
i met a girl online many years ago (back in the prodigy days) and i moved about eight states to marry her. it was wonderful and we are still best of friends. but we simply didn't know enough about each other to really make an informed decision.
just make sure you have an 'out'. the worse thing is to be stuck in a place you don't want to be without your network of family and friends.