thais

I'm back from Cali, it was good to see my Dad and my Grandma, but the entire 4 days I was there I was itching to get back. Now that I'm back I kind of wish I wasn't. I'm bored and lonely, and just completely unsure of what I want to do in life and what I want out of life. I started crying today and I don't even know why. I felt sad, but didn't exactly know why. I guess I needed to let something in my subconscious out. I'm tired of my job, and a little tired of the way my life is right now. I love my boyfriend very much, but I'm just bored. I always have to tell myself that what I'm feeling when I get like this is temporary, and I hope that is true. I want 2007 to be better than this past year in so many ways. I want more friends, people that I actually want to be around, and people that understand me, are mature, and don't judge me. I want to go out more, and not sit around in my house all the time like this past year... which caused me to gain a bit of weight also. I want to be more active in life.. not becuase of losing weight only, but because it fights against bordem and depression. I want to read more books... the ones I've been meaning to read for ages. All of these things are so easy to do, I just need to make them a part of my daily routine. I don't have a clue what we're going to do for new years eve, but hopefully it wont be completely boring like i'm assuming it will be. I would give anything to spend it with my best friend Matt in South FL, but its too far away, and I already left my bf for Christmas so I cant leave him for new years eve too. Which reminds me, I need to make a run ABC tonight before all the good shit is sold out!!!

Happy New Year everyone! Be safe and have high hopes for 2007 <3