texaspsych

so I am in a horrible situation.

I am in love..... Normally this is a great thing and most people would be shouting it from the mountain top but I am not one of those people. See I have issues with committing. I get terrified with the prospect of being with one person for ever. I think it comes more from the admission that I am good enough for her to be with for ever.
Another thing that scares me about the whole thing is I have just gotten out of a relationship that tore my heart out and stomped on it.
See I figured I was doing a good job of protecting but it seems like I have let her in even thought my mind didn't want to. So now I am terrified but not so much terrified of the commitment but terrified of the idea that I might fuck it up and lose her. What a strange feeling for me. Normally I am not to concerned about all of that but this time I am.
Hahahaha I feel like some dumb kid no knowing if I am coming or going.

Hopefully this will blow over soon and I can go back to being normal again. LOL

Hope all is well for everyone else out there.