it feels good to be appreciated even by an enemy,,,, I'm not much of a person anymore..
believe it or not, I've been severely depressed... Where all I can do is speak and hope someone listens. Or can respond the right way..
Nothing as a whole has really triggered my emotions.. Its kind of a billion and one little things. I dont see my self...
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believe it or not, I've been severely depressed... Where all I can do is speak and hope someone listens. Or can respond the right way..
Nothing as a whole has really triggered my emotions.. Its kind of a billion and one little things. I dont see my self...
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shane_is_rad:
Wow I cant say much to you on this. I would be out of my eliment.And any advice I would give you would just be crap. Nothing to base it off of. I will try to say something nice to try to cheer you up. and tell you something that helps me.And I offer that whloe harted.
I gave up evrything that made me sad in life. I gave up lots of friends and some family. All bad habbits that made me feel like shit. I only keep the good. and it was the best thing I ever did. for my self esteam (?spelling sorry) alone was worth it. my old man is a real jurk. A jurk to my mom. A jurk to my sister and brothers. he did not want to be like that. So I am nice to evryone I meet. I want no ties to that man. I focus only on whats next in life. I let the past be the past. we cant change who we get as family. we cant change how we grew up. And even if I could, I dont know if i would. that made me who i am today. I dont know who that is? but I do know who im not... When I sent you a buddy reqest. I came AS IS. I came scrached and dented. I have a past you, have a past. im ok with that. my friendship looks beond that. stay strong. I think your rad
shane bla bla bla sorry i took so muck space
I gave up evrything that made me sad in life. I gave up lots of friends and some family. All bad habbits that made me feel like shit. I only keep the good. and it was the best thing I ever did. for my self esteam (?spelling sorry) alone was worth it. my old man is a real jurk. A jurk to my mom. A jurk to my sister and brothers. he did not want to be like that. So I am nice to evryone I meet. I want no ties to that man. I focus only on whats next in life. I let the past be the past. we cant change who we get as family. we cant change how we grew up. And even if I could, I dont know if i would. that made me who i am today. I dont know who that is? but I do know who im not... When I sent you a buddy reqest. I came AS IS. I came scrached and dented. I have a past you, have a past. im ok with that. my friendship looks beond that. stay strong. I think your rad
shane bla bla bla sorry i took so muck space
dexie:
CANT WAIT!!
arrrrrrgggg!!
CANT WAIT!!
arrrrrrgggg!!
20 random facts about me.
1. I can be a hermit for long periods of time. When I venture out of my room, I later regret it.
2. I often think about leaving everything I own, hitch hike up to San Francisco and becoming a bum.
3. I love bagels and cream cheese, I could eat one everyday for the rest of my life.
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1. I can be a hermit for long periods of time. When I venture out of my room, I later regret it.
2. I often think about leaving everything I own, hitch hike up to San Francisco and becoming a bum.
3. I love bagels and cream cheese, I could eat one everyday for the rest of my life.
4....
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sixele:
how did the test go? i hope you passed... anyway... its late again and i have to work tomorrow. I miss your face.
sixele:
yeah.... we are two hours ahead of you guys and its about ten here so it should be about 8 there. you can call anytime... i will usually call on sunday and monday because those are my days off. blah 
Alright, my bangs are finally back to blonde blonde.. Not the nasty light bluish grayish uglyish they were for a while it still freaks me out each time I look in the mirror though.. Do you ever do that? Dye your hair and totally forget about it ? every time Im like whoa, yeah im dumb..
Anyways, I think im reaching the end of a...
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shane_is_rad:
I hope your doing better today
dexie:
oh honey if I looked 1/2 as good as you do I wouldnt have to!!!! ack!
okay some one beat me with the cry baby stick.. 
I cant stop this gloomy cloud over my head...
MAKE IT GO AWAY.
its weird feeling completely content, to feeling unsettled..
Im becoming a hermit again...
does anyone know what its like to be scared to leave your home...
im scared to go get the mail.
not so much scared but getting the mail is...
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I cant stop this gloomy cloud over my head...
MAKE IT GO AWAY.
its weird feeling completely content, to feeling unsettled..
Im becoming a hermit again...
does anyone know what its like to be scared to leave your home...
im scared to go get the mail.
not so much scared but getting the mail is...
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mrmiah:
I was feeling it, It was creaping up on me too. I have found my solution for that lingering depression, It is to leave. It's not the answer for everyone, but for me it fixes me. Right now I'm in north carolina after riding my motorcycle for four days. That trip has lifted my soul and given me some clarity that i lost sitting in SLC. Just know you are not alone in this, and that this too shall pass.....
shane_is_rad:
OK Its tomorrow
And you bet you sweet ass you feel better becuse its rocker night in salt lake city
the mighty warrent is playing at the whiskey tonight? lets go !!!! grab your hubbie. lets shove some jocks and kick some ass. Its rocker time 
I will buy you kids a drink(if you drink)
And you bet you sweet ass you feel better becuse its rocker night in salt lake city
the mighty warrent is playing at the whiskey tonight? lets go !!!! grab your hubbie. lets shove some jocks and kick some ass. Its rocker time
I will buy you kids a drink(if you drink)
Last weekend we went to the gay pride dance/festival.. It was alright, we met a few different interesting people.. I just like to go and watch all the different kinds of people come together and enjoy them selfs..
Then last night we went to the necromantixXXX it was eh. alright Ive decided Im done with concerts for a while I get too annoyed around to...
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Then last night we went to the necromantixXXX it was eh. alright Ive decided Im done with concerts for a while I get too annoyed around to...
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dexie:
Oh I hear ya. I fucking hate people lately.
Shows are so fucking retarded now. I have sooo many books of pics from concerts and now i cant even take in my fucking cell phones to shows anymore becauser it has a camera option... hello, try buying one now-a-days without one.... fuckers.
sorry im cranky HA!
Shows are so fucking retarded now. I have sooo many books of pics from concerts and now i cant even take in my fucking cell phones to shows anymore becauser it has a camera option... hello, try buying one now-a-days without one.... fuckers.
sorry im cranky HA!
dexie:
oh do it! random facts are great... bad day too?
it doesnt make sense to me about the bed...
it doesnt make sense to me about the bed...
so I went to gay pride.. last night at the dance it sucked it rained and I was to drunk for my own good by the time we ended up leaving...spent all the money we had, doing dumb drunk things after wards totally forget to save some for the concert were going to tomorrow night.. I didnt get any pictures of the dance.
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bella_donna:
i think there are 1 bed room ones. its a pretty cool place to live. Alot of people here are in there 20's and I've meet like 4 guy's on my floor alone who are dj's. Plus I love the coffee house downstairs. The train is a bit loud but you kinda get used to it and forget it after awile. I've never herd my neighbors I think the walls are pretty thick. and theres the gateway and the orbit cafe and the club next door. SO far we really like but in 6 months or so we'll me moving to sugar house probably just cause we're ready to rent an actual house
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dexie:
I was thinking i could take PJ to the parade... no way. The rain fucking sucks. Im pissed. AHHHH!!!!
dexie:
Eeeek! what else is coming up. OH that show tomorrow right? take pics! I can't go. I need some free stuff to do around town. ha!
so I dyed my hair... black, with bleached bangs,, and I bleached the bangs first, (dumb idea) cause when I dyed the back black and washed it out it dyed my bangs an ughish light blue... gawd damnit... anyways lucky I got a shot of my bangs before the ugh ISH brown blue... tomarrow, they should be either BRIGHT red. or a deep purple.. depending...
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shane_is_rad:
Your hair looks good. to bad it did not take. I have had a few fuck ups in hair dying . I will be at the show, cant wait. did you go to the show last night at lofi?(It dies today)
lookin at you fav, bands I dont think you did. I missed it had to work at 5am.
Happy we are buddys .thanks for the info. you rule rock out
shane
I have had a few fuck ups in hair dying . I will be at the show, cant wait. did you go to the show last night at lofi?(It dies today)
lookin at you fav, bands I dont think you did. I missed it
had to work at 5am.
Happy we are buddys .thanks for the info. you rule rock out
shane
dexie:
Hola! You're so pretty I casnt wait to see the colorz. hmm I might be going to that dance thing. Sounds awesome. Are you going to all of those?
I finally have been updating my favorite suicide girls... I started going threw the complete list,, from Z-A but only got to about H... and this was alittle bit last night then a little bit today then alittle more today.. and I didnt havent finished the list... wat happened? theres so many sg's now.. 
Synnove is so pretty! she is my new favorite....
I miss...
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Synnove is so pretty! she is my new favorite....
I miss...
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bella_donna:
thanks lady
oh oh i wana go this weekend ware is it being held?
yeah i went through the pains of black hair to blond last year. It deff fries your head
thanks lady
oh oh i wana go this weekend ware is it being held?
yeah i went through the pains of black hair to blond last year. It deff fries your head
shane_is_rad:
the rekromantics are play is salt lake you say?
do tell, when and where?
let go pride week Isent you a buddy offer 
If you need a new buddy
do tell, when and where?
let go pride week
Isent you a buddy offer If you need a new buddy
the poker think im in. as long as i dont have to work the next day. Are we playing with money or for good times?
thats crazy!