tessaruby

okay some one beat me with the cry baby stick..

I cant stop this gloomy cloud over my head...

MAKE IT GO AWAY.

its weird feeling completely content, to feeling unsettled..

Im becoming a hermit again...

does anyone know what its like to be scared to leave your home...

im scared to go get the mail.

not so much scared but getting the mail is a pointless thing to do.. its not for me... I dont do anyone justice by going and getting it for them..

what is causing this lack of motivation?

I have alot of what I want... more then enough to be happy..

up untill now, I was completely level headed..

I felt balanced..

maybe im suppose to feel this gray matter that surrounds me...

someone just slap me with anything.. knock it out of me..

dull, and blank...

I can only sleep soooooo much. until im forced to move..

I have the ability to sit in one spot for 8 straight hours.. and to sleep for more then most of the day.. and not eat or shower or do anything...

maybe I should put that on my resume..

maybe I should do something active, something that makes me feel worth while..

I see more faces on the computer screen then I do in my actual existence..

SLAP ME.

with draws to having such a great life? at least in my eyes I enjoy my life.. but sometimes I dont.. and I get dull.. and lame .. and bitch alot...

oh well maybe I'll be fine tomorrow..