terrakotta

How can I put this in a way so as not to offend or unnerve
Theres a rumor going all round that you aint been getting served
They say that you aint you know what in baby who knows how long
Its hard for me to say whats right
When all I wanna do is wrong
Gett off - 23 positions in a one-night stand
Gett off - Ill only call you after if you say I can
Gett off - let a woman be a woman and a man be a man
Gett off - if you want to, baby here I am
-Prince

Okay now that you have all written me off your SG friends list for that pop whiplash haha I just figured since I cant get it out of my head, it might as well be in yours too. And you're all closet Prince fans: don't lie. I went to a bar tonight where dance music alternated with 80s rock. It was either Prince or Paradise by the Dashboard Light, and we wont even go to that hell.

You know what? Men who can dance are sexy. I dont mean men who dance: those drunks doing the white tornado arent sexy. I mean men who can dance. I went to a dive bar with some of the girls tonight. No, I didnt dance, but I have made up my mind to take swing dance lessons ASAP, even though I dont have a partner and will probably be paired in the class with some 65 year old lady. Swing: that whole era is fabulous. And I want to be able to join in and not look like a dork.

I had another doppleganger episode tonight. I went outside with my friend Tina who needed a smoke, and some very intoxicated guy sitting alone got up and said to me, Hey, I like what you did to your hair! and I said, Uh, thanks {thinking, I have no idea who you are; go away please} He introduced himself to Tina, and I said my name. He replied, What? Youre kidding. {yeah buddy, Im a big fucken prankster; now see ya} and began repeating my name over and over again. Now that I think about it, it could have been some lame attempt at a pick-up line, but whatever.

Jesus I am bitchy tonight. I snapped and drove to an all-night market to buy cigarettes yesterday but I am not smoking any more of them. I want to quit, if only for the promised I-Pod I might score as a reward. Im trying JayTan; Im trying.

I will not smoke them in my car
I will not smoke them when I go to the bar
I will not smoke them when Im at school
I will not smoke them just to be cool
I will not smoke them after play
I will not smoke them and quit one day
I will get this smoking monkey off my back
I will only smoke per week one pack
I will try to follow through with this plan
I will not smoke them, Sam I am!

I think tomorrows plan is to go to one of the local colleges or bookstores and work on my school stuff. Ive been meaning to get to it all week but I cant seem to concentrate at home. However, the last time I went to the bookstore to work, a small child sat with his parents at the table next to me and spent a full hour belting out Sesame Street lyrics. So, the library may be a better choice.

PS: Jen called me from the wedding (at Cape Cod) to tell me that she bought a rainbow cat bumper sticker for me. At that, I have given up and have decided to just embrace gayness.