teresaannamae

So.
I've decided for my attempt at a 15lb weightloss I will keep my progress posted at the bottom of each journal.
This will make me feel like I now have to prove myself to someone so I'll really do it I love how I know how I work.

Anyways...
My roomate bought the new Snoop Dogg cd and it's fabUlous.
*does crib walk*
and i'm no longer hiding my LOVE of rap. i love it!
fuck y'all, all y'all.. and if y'all don't like me BLOW ME. hahaha.

i love it.

anyways! anywho.
i'm DEPRESSED as HELL and don't know how to talk to anyone about it. *rolls eyes at new self*
Seems like every morning I'm plotting suicide.. and the feelings don't overly wear off throughout the day.. just a bit because i'm occupied.
I'm just making myself sick. I'll come around.. I always do..
but it's to the point now where i don't even want to socialize to snap myself out for a bit.
Oie.


AnYwAyS..
since i know y'all love that EtAlK.

lol.
i crack myself up.
and yes, i'm high.
still depressed, just seeing it from a different level now.

*cribwalk time*
I'm gonna start shopping at west 49.
I think my nice .. classy ... west49 look could work.
hell yeah.
i'mma i'mma i'mmmaaaaa PLAYA.
i'm not really, but damn- snoop is.

so ...
i dreampt that i fell in love last night.
me own subconscious is telling me to hold on and keep hope.
wow.
because now.. i really want to fall in love again.. the right way.
*swooooooooon*


ahhhhhh........ *sigh*
i can say no to food.
i am SO proud of myself.
i threw out cake today.. *I*.. TERESA !!!! I.. ME! i threw out cake.
i could never refuse things like this before..
i'm so proud.
i almost want to abuse it and starve myself to lose weight but .. the consequences are NOT worth it.

so. now you know a little more about me.
isn't that FUN, kids?
yuck, i take kids back.
my ex always called everyone kids. it's such a higherthanthou kind of thing and i deteste it.




but i lovest thou.
nous sont mes favourites.
if that's even proper french. i just slepped it franche. lol. that's what ya get for spelling when 'ur' high.
hahaha.



Anyways-
Lost 2 lbs!
Wootwoot
current - 148.
goal - 135.
left - 13.

WOAH.
WOAH.
WOAH.
WOAH.
WOAH.
that was the MOST RETARDED THING EVARRRR.


okay, so i finished my entry.. was about to go and do my "♥t" thing and i scrolled up to see how long it was.. my mouse slipped off the scroller and when i scrolled back down my weight analysis was at the bottom.. i didn't write it there.. i wasn't going to on this entry..
but it magically did it anyways.




♥t

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