Okay..
so i'm going through a little bit of inner turmoil.
I guess I have to explain the whole situation too. blarg..
alright..
So i met this girl on the internet.. and we're dating now.. she lives 5 hours away.. and I'm pretty serious about this, so is she. She's just great.. she's everything i could have asked for and more...
But.. it's been two months.. and we haven't met.. and I'm worried that we might meet and things might not work out.. so i want to meet soon.. like, within August.. just so i know i'm not wasting my time here. I don't mean that to sound selfish.. but.. I really want to put my all into this.. and i just don't want to be crushed in the end.. so i'm starting to be wary.... and she's never dated a girl before.. and she's nervous.. and she seems to keep making excuses as to why she can't come visit.. and i just.. i need an answer.. but i'm terrified to bring the subject up because i don't want to scare her and seem like i'm being too pushy.. but it's kind of consuming my mind and when i talk to her.. i'm being really quiet... and that's not cool. I want to have an absolutely open realtionship and if she was thinking this i would be disappointed if she didn't voice it to me.. but everytime i delve into my emotions in relationships.. well, it never goes well.. i'm always a burden, or wrong, or.. i just end up feeling like an idiot.. or i don't know.. i just don't want to seem to agressive with this.. she's so tame.. and.. i don't know.. i'm using a lot of dots and that's annoying me.. i just.. i want to know what's going on.. i want to be able to touch her.. and know what it's like to kiss her.. and just be beside her.. fuck.
sigh.
someone help me.
what should i do...
i have offered to pay for the bus. she won't accept, haha.
xoxo
Teresa
so i'm going through a little bit of inner turmoil.
I guess I have to explain the whole situation too. blarg..
alright..
So i met this girl on the internet.. and we're dating now.. she lives 5 hours away.. and I'm pretty serious about this, so is she. She's just great.. she's everything i could have asked for and more...
But.. it's been two months.. and we haven't met.. and I'm worried that we might meet and things might not work out.. so i want to meet soon.. like, within August.. just so i know i'm not wasting my time here. I don't mean that to sound selfish.. but.. I really want to put my all into this.. and i just don't want to be crushed in the end.. so i'm starting to be wary.... and she's never dated a girl before.. and she's nervous.. and she seems to keep making excuses as to why she can't come visit.. and i just.. i need an answer.. but i'm terrified to bring the subject up because i don't want to scare her and seem like i'm being too pushy.. but it's kind of consuming my mind and when i talk to her.. i'm being really quiet... and that's not cool. I want to have an absolutely open realtionship and if she was thinking this i would be disappointed if she didn't voice it to me.. but everytime i delve into my emotions in relationships.. well, it never goes well.. i'm always a burden, or wrong, or.. i just end up feeling like an idiot.. or i don't know.. i just don't want to seem to agressive with this.. she's so tame.. and.. i don't know.. i'm using a lot of dots and that's annoying me.. i just.. i want to know what's going on.. i want to be able to touch her.. and know what it's like to kiss her.. and just be beside her.. fuck.
sigh.
someone help me.
what should i do...
i have offered to pay for the bus. she won't accept, haha.
xoxo
Teresa
wendy1:
oh, honey, I know how you feel. Just give it time (the harderst thing to do, probably), and it will work itself out.
devilninny:
do you talk on the phone frequently?