I failed a perm test today. 
BUT... my teacher GAVE me a manniquian so I can practice my color and cut for the comeptition.
I think I might have a 15 min presentation due tomorrow.
BUT... the teacher is so slack it won't matter that I'm not ready.
I fart a lot now.
BUT... it's funny to gross out my friends.
I have no money.
BUT... maybe this way I won't be able to eat and I'll lose weight.
I don't know why I cannot lose weight.
I don't fit into my pants anymore, they used to be very very loose- almost to the point of falling off sometimes. Now they buckle when I sit and they are so snug at my ass they give me wedgies. And really, it's not funny nor attractive.
I eat a 150cal breakfast of three veggie dogs and some mustard. That gives me 150% of my B12 and 27g of protien.
Everyday for lunch I either have veggie chili - another 16g protien, and under 250cal OR I eat a salad with 2 tbsp of french dressing. Then I come home and have a full dinner, usually with either tomato soup, or random boiled veggies (carrots, potatoes, turnip, cabbage), or I have a small bowl of rice. I snakc at night, but never ever anything that would total over 400cal. So really, I should be losing weight.
I don't eat after 8 on weekdays, 9 or 10 on weekend nights.
AND I drink ONLY water- and I have about a litre a day.
Someone please tell me what is wrong. Please. It's really really bothering me. Since September I have gained 15 lbs and 2 inches on my tummy, and who knows what everywhere else.
Should I eat more? Small, frequent meals?
I'm so fucking devistated.
I worked so hard since I was 13 to lose this weight, and I promiced I wouldn't let it fluxuate more than 5 lbs up before i started working to get my 133lbs back, but here I am- 145lbs. a 5 foot 4 inch frame. Devistated.
I'm trying so fucking hard.
And I can't afford the gym, don't bother with that.
I do home workouts a few times a week and really work up a sweat.
And it's fucking winter and we have feet upon feet of snow, so don't even think about suggesting the great outdoors.
Thank You.
Teresa
BUT... my teacher GAVE me a manniquian so I can practice my color and cut for the comeptition.
I think I might have a 15 min presentation due tomorrow.
BUT... the teacher is so slack it won't matter that I'm not ready.
I fart a lot now.
BUT... it's funny to gross out my friends.
I have no money.
BUT... maybe this way I won't be able to eat and I'll lose weight.
I don't know why I cannot lose weight.
I don't fit into my pants anymore, they used to be very very loose- almost to the point of falling off sometimes. Now they buckle when I sit and they are so snug at my ass they give me wedgies. And really, it's not funny nor attractive.
I eat a 150cal breakfast of three veggie dogs and some mustard. That gives me 150% of my B12 and 27g of protien.
Everyday for lunch I either have veggie chili - another 16g protien, and under 250cal OR I eat a salad with 2 tbsp of french dressing. Then I come home and have a full dinner, usually with either tomato soup, or random boiled veggies (carrots, potatoes, turnip, cabbage), or I have a small bowl of rice. I snakc at night, but never ever anything that would total over 400cal. So really, I should be losing weight.
I don't eat after 8 on weekdays, 9 or 10 on weekend nights.
AND I drink ONLY water- and I have about a litre a day.
Someone please tell me what is wrong. Please. It's really really bothering me. Since September I have gained 15 lbs and 2 inches on my tummy, and who knows what everywhere else.
Should I eat more? Small, frequent meals?
I'm so fucking devistated.
I worked so hard since I was 13 to lose this weight, and I promiced I wouldn't let it fluxuate more than 5 lbs up before i started working to get my 133lbs back, but here I am- 145lbs. a 5 foot 4 inch frame. Devistated.
I'm trying so fucking hard.
And I can't afford the gym, don't bother with that.
I do home workouts a few times a week and really work up a sweat.
And it's fucking winter and we have feet upon feet of snow, so don't even think about suggesting the great outdoors.
Thank You.
Teresa
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i agree with boi anyway- you're a babe! but i'm guilty of obsessing over my physical flaws too, so i understand.