I think i need to change.
Apparently I'm too negative. Sorry everyone, I'm going to turn myself around.
I need a new improved personality, perhaps I'll create a second personality and eventually take it over as my own.
I need to be
a) More Social
b) Happier
c) Wordlier and more wellread/intelligent.
I need some work. I'm by far a socialite because I don't think anyone would enjoy my company because I suck so much. Here I go again, being negative.
Where's my Seat Of The Soul book? *looks*
Today my girlfriend told me that I'm too negative, that she never hears anything postive come out of my mouth anymore. I started crying inside. She said thats she thinks I'd feel a lot happier is i started saying more positive things than negative.
I need some positive training.. perhaps a book labeled "How to be happy and positive" Because I'm just lost.
I just feel like I don't have anything to offer anyone.
Just questioning my existance. No one worry. This is just me. I'm stupid like that. fuck.
Apparently I'm too negative. Sorry everyone, I'm going to turn myself around.
I need a new improved personality, perhaps I'll create a second personality and eventually take it over as my own.
I need to be
a) More Social
b) Happier
c) Wordlier and more wellread/intelligent.
I need some work. I'm by far a socialite because I don't think anyone would enjoy my company because I suck so much. Here I go again, being negative.
Where's my Seat Of The Soul book? *looks*
Today my girlfriend told me that I'm too negative, that she never hears anything postive come out of my mouth anymore. I started crying inside. She said thats she thinks I'd feel a lot happier is i started saying more positive things than negative.
I need some positive training.. perhaps a book labeled "How to be happy and positive" Because I'm just lost.
I just feel like I don't have anything to offer anyone.
Just questioning my existance. No one worry. This is just me. I'm stupid like that. fuck.
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"The power of Positive Thinking" thats a book on the topic but you probably don't really need a whole book. Just try to stop the self-bashing words from coming out of you mouth they aren't true.
You're probably depressed because you have negative/inaccurate thoughts about yourself. Saying things like " I suck," or "I'm stupid," or "I'm no good at all," is just not true. You're lying to yourself and starting to believe it.
Sure, there are some things we suck at. I also know there are things you DON'T suck at. Just like we ALL do stupid things from time-to-time. but that doesn't make us STUPID.
Stop lying to yourself !!! The more you think shitty things about yourself the more you're gonna believe them!! You're NEVER gonna be perfect. None of us ever will.
You have a girlfriend. Yeah things are rocky right now, but there are obviously some really cool things about you or you wouldn't have someone in your life that cares so much about you.
I'm sure people point out things they like about you. I KNOW your girlfriend does. But I'm also sure that when someone says something nice about you, you don't believe it. There's usually a "Yes, but......" in there somewhere in your mind. REALLY start listening when people give you a compliment. Because they're being honest with you even if you don't see it.
(Wow, sorry for being SO wordy, but I've been through all this too.)
Don't "beat yourself up" for beating yourself up. You've been hard on yourself for years. You're probably not gonna stop overnight. It's OK!! Just recognize that you're being hard on yourself and stop.
Ok, I could go on ALL day. I hope this makes sense. Bottom line. BE GOOD TO YOURSELF!! You deserve it. Be good you yourself and your girlfriend will be good to you.
Take care!!!
-Simon
(Michael)