tequilaraymax

Things just aren't like they used to be.

I'm not getting any younger, either. But I've known love. I've had several pretty serious relationships. Ask me at the time, and I'd have told you I was in love with them all. I've since known the difference. I lost the real love.

Suffice to say, I'm emotionally ill prepared to get deeply involved with anybody right now. That's been the case for almost a year now. All I'm really looking for is a little fun. I haven't been laid in way too long.

I remember how we'ed be driving round, just wasting time, amd we'ed pass a car full of girls... smiles, laughs, we'ed follow and have fun. Just shallow flirtation. Fairly meaningless stuff, but the possibility was always there.

Now I look around and I wonder if I should just settle for the first thing that comes along. It's hard to just bge alone - single - when nothing ever happens. Of course, I won't just settle. I'm just out of time. Where I'm at - I don't fit in here, with anyone. My stance is somewhat different to the status quo. I really need to leave.

I don't know anyone anymore that could be SG material, for example. These girls - and my ex is one of them - are just girls. There's really nothing superhuman. But they're the kind of girls I'm sure I used to know, used to see around.

Ugh.

No more.