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Fuck.

I am just back from SG-ly shenanigans. I figure I am going to write this while I retain some semblance of inebriation because otherwise I won't. I have been a negligent tensix, and I am sorry for that. But anyway. It was good times, drinking irrevereltly with Decibel before most everyone else showed up, meeting more of the local SG crew, dancing (if you could call my abortions of organized movement dance) with whitewidow and mistressminx, random talking with random people (many of whom I had hoped never to see again, but that is a complaint for another day), followed by random semi-drunken walkabouts with mistressminx and Decibel.

But as I always do when I am left to my own devices for any length of time, I got to thinking. There are times when I wish I wouldn't do that. Being in a bar just reminds me of how far apart I tend to be from most people. I have previously mentioned the fact that t hings I would tend to talk about, and things others would find interesting (and, conversely, things most "normal" people would tend to speak of and things I would find interesting or even know enought about to fake interest) are orders of magnitude apart. This has not improved since that time, and if anything is worse. There are a lot of times that I think the degree to which I have insulated myself from "pop" culture is a good thing, though it does tend to make conversation strained at times. Granted, a lot of what I am missing is likely to simply be mindless word swapping with equally mindless meat automatons, though I am probably missing some actual, thinking humans amidst the biomass too. Sucks.

I gave Decibel a high-five today, after he cracked a good joke. Afterwards, I realized that it was the first time I had voluntarily made any kind of physical contact with another human in weeks. That is probably not a good thing, all things considered. I think I have been single for entirely too long.

yrs,
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