temptfaith

i'm restless. there is a huge lull in my work schedule. being self-employed, or, as i call it, unemployed, has some stellar advantages. one big pain in the ass is the abrupt jerking of my soul that occurs when i go from working non-stop to full stop. sometimes i cannot adapt to being home. other times i cannot adapt to being away. one might surmise i just have trouble adapting. they might be right.

i supported my inner geek by watching all of the final season of the TV program angel recently. as much as i think david boreanas ranks about with keanua reeves in terms of acting skill i find myself missing that show and, of course, its superior, buffy the vampire slayer.

it galls me that i miss a show at all. i went about six years without a television when i realized what a gigantic time drain the devil's box can be. now... a few years with a new television, and i find myself "missing" canceled TV shows. what a change. what a terrible change.

when did TV become more important than real life? do we/i really need distracting that much? if my new year's resolution had been to stay away from TV i would have failed. it has a place as a painkiller in my life. maybe souldeadener would be a better term. i don't know if you'll agree but sometimes that is a necessary thing.

maybe i'll go worship at its altar now. praise radiation. all hail, law and order.