temptess

I am so fucking depressed! I guess I should never allow myself to get this tired, all becomes hopeless and useless and life has little to no meaning. I think I am always travelling with the excuse of "working" to avoid dealing with real life. I hate living out of a suitcase, but at least it doesn't get boring. I am fortunate to have all that I do, I know. But still, I want more. They drift in and out and it really makes no difference. A couple tiny scribbles on the scale really.

I bought this hot silver chain and mesh bikini that Cim said made me look like a Vegas showgirl. It is pretty hot! I am trying really hard, I truly am. Doin' it like I never have before. Maybe this time I will enjoy it? I guess I always do to an extent but entertaining is certainly not what it used to be. (Now I sound old and crotchety). I will find my place eventually, I know I will.