temptess

dunno what the fuck happened but am verrry glad you are still here! a'ight!

I just thought I would mention that in "Your Pics"... image #3 is one of the most erotic images I have ever seen. Really.

Call me crazy...but I think you are back!

That reminds me of something I wrote years ago during my freshman college drunken depression days. I'll share it here for your amusement:

Torn

That which we cannot see but only feel...
The flames are black...yeilding no warmth nor light;
The tears 'the crimson hue of blood,
Flowing with my pain and my mortality.

A fire within me consumes itself,
And my tears drown me in sorrow.
I am torn between myself...
Arms tearing each other limb from limb.

The hell we make for ourselves is a damnation eternity cannot match, And we seek solace through physical pain, for a moment finding peace from the emotional.

Clawing, scratching, tearing...torn.
My nails against my skin...
My flesh raw against the harsh world...
My soul buried deep within...hidden.

From each wound its cleansing sting...
The pain an all too familiar reminder that I still feel.
I struggle through the darkness to endure this self-made anguish... In the void, to silence the pain would be to silence the heart.

Wounds heal and a dark soul can learn to love again...
...if it ever forgot...

Do I renounce the pain...I am torn.

-me
10/28/1997

It is always about our desires.
A thrist we can never quench.

That's good to hear, I hope your goal wants to achieve you as much you do it (or him, or her, or etc.?). Does your goal know of your goal? In other words have you made it apparent in coolish way that makes a goal want you back, rather freaking them out? (Not that I'm suggesting you'd freak any goals out, just that it can be a fine line in my experience, having been on both sides, of that line on both sides of that coin.)

mediocrity is under-rated. i find that sometimes the grey area is more compforting than it's alternatives. things usually tend to sway black or white, dramatic or boring. "piss-off" is a good way to deal with either type of person. grab a book or a good shower massager, both are rewarding.

I DID read your Foie Gras comment and you know what? Foie gras is not sucking cock. It's really not something heterosexual men just try. I can see your point intellectually, but viscerally (as a straight male) it does not hold water. But I appreciate the arguement you make and I respect it. I just happen to disagree. That's for playng along.

Now, I get put over your knee? Hmn...never done that....not really my thing as you know. Now if you wanna reverse the roles, I am more than happy to oblige.

It is odd all this action of late. Both innocent and not so innocent. But I am more than happy to have it this way.....if you think of a situation that might get me into more trouble, please throw it out there...I am all ears!

so you gonna let me take you out to dinner or what

Holy Smokes!
I like your photos.
OK bye bye.

yes, most unfortunate that you lack a webcam. Sorry to hear your toe is still rubbered. Guess that ice would come in handy indeed.

And I quote "Yup, looks like I'll be on my knees a lot". I'm sorry, but I just can't help myself

i think the rest of us probably wish you had a webcam too...

yes -- you should break your toe on me next time.

that new profile pic is awesome!

Hey!! Come to Brazil!!! So I can show you some nice clubs here... sometimes I am even the Dj
Hey... Ladytron is so fucking GREAT!

Wow...nice to meet you too! What was your name again?

Such a wonderful surprise to meet you tonight... I hope you have a safe (and conscious) drive home... In retrospect I feel bad for not making good on the drink, I'll have to make my way up to SB someday and make up for it... and so nice to meet another like-minded individual. Take care, and all that stuff

trilo

Woah- I'm two days behind on the convo and feel way left out. I'll do my best to rectify...

First- I pray no harm befell you. You are a strong independent woman and my instincts tell me you know how to take care of yourself.

Second- Rat bastard, eh? You're lucky you've started writing like your old self again lately. Otherwise you wouldn't even be on my level, deserving of a response.

I don't think being a "fantasy fulfiller" is particularly endemic of the feminist movement in particular. It's more about personal empowerment and enrichment at the expense of the historical oppressor, but the benefits are localized and don't transfer well to the rest of your gender. I would group it with a black drug dealer selling crack to a white lawyer, or a native american tribe operating a casino (to a lesser extent).

Still from a capitalist standpoint I think it's wonderful. I have another friend, Blue, who is an IT consultant by day and a pro dom by night. More power to you...

I'll tell you what I tell everybody. Wiffle Bat Killing spree. Let your anger go.

I believe that I have a flair for complaining, but not in the traditional sense. My lifes ok, I get by and have a nasty addiction for foldgers coffee and ebay ( I just won a bowling ball). What I do is see someone thats down and make my life seem so obsurd that they have no choice but to laugh and see they could be worse. It's the Al Bundy cure keep smiling and enjoy being on the road

Huzzah.