yet another day of craziness has ended...
i just got in the door and mom called from the doctors office. i knew something was wrong the last time i saw her, but didn't know what to say about it. the last thing i wanted her to think was she looked tired or run down or just overall unhealthy. she was in tears and didn't seem to know what to say to me.
what a fucking week! can someone pull me off this ride yet? i've been drinking like a fucking lush and trying to keep my shitty job in tact - all while luring this poor, beautiful girl in and working like a little bitch to line up new media and shows for the band.
she has know idea what she's getting her self into - what a pretty little mess.
the short of the above situation is that i'm sure my mom will have some sort of cancer. i just have a feeling. i don't think i could handle another case of cancer right now. fuck! what an absolutely horrible thing to say right now. fuck! i can be so incredibly self centered sometimes - it makes me sick.
i'm just sitting here listening to "Aimee Mann" while i vent. sorry. she somehow seems to be filling this horrible void i'm feeling.
i think some new ink might help?
until next time...
i just got in the door and mom called from the doctors office. i knew something was wrong the last time i saw her, but didn't know what to say about it. the last thing i wanted her to think was she looked tired or run down or just overall unhealthy. she was in tears and didn't seem to know what to say to me.
what a fucking week! can someone pull me off this ride yet? i've been drinking like a fucking lush and trying to keep my shitty job in tact - all while luring this poor, beautiful girl in and working like a little bitch to line up new media and shows for the band.
she has know idea what she's getting her self into - what a pretty little mess.
the short of the above situation is that i'm sure my mom will have some sort of cancer. i just have a feeling. i don't think i could handle another case of cancer right now. fuck! what an absolutely horrible thing to say right now. fuck! i can be so incredibly self centered sometimes - it makes me sick.
i'm just sitting here listening to "Aimee Mann" while i vent. sorry. she somehow seems to be filling this horrible void i'm feeling.
i think some new ink might help?
until next time...
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F-I-R-E-W-O-R-K-S and friggin' 10 foot flames in front of the string sections