tehwickedends

December Fourth Two Thousand and One.
Its a very important date to me, its a day that changed my life then as I know it. Ive come to learn since then that it may have changed my life for the better because it was the day I was expelled from high school and arrested for selling drugs.
The story goes like this, one morning I was pulled out of class by the Principal and the Dean of Students of my school and pretty thrown up against the wall for question. Once I was asked about the drugs I knew they already had the answers so I didnt bullshit them and admitted to giving weed to a girl I had known for I would say 6 plus years. It turns out she was with a teacher or something going through her purse and some weed fell out and she was caught, so she gave up my name and not just me but the kid that I had gotten it from since we were all friends at the time. Heres the catch, I gave her weed on her birthday with was about 5 days before she got busted, not only that she had triple what I had even given her, she had got caught with weed from someone and sold me out. That was the first time I had really been betrayed like that by a friend, six years gone. The result of everything ended up being myself being expelled but allowed to return after the holiday break, school probation was put on and it was a pretty short leash that they let stay with. Despite all happening I still have pretty good grades, the entire month of december off and I had Bs and 90% of my classes, still being kicked out of high school for being a drug dealer is enough to keep you out of most colleges, in fact the 7 colleges I applied to all rejected me cuz of that fact. So after that I stopped selling drugs, now I wasnt a huge dealer, widely known, I just moved whatever I could my hands on and I knew a lot of people, I was only caught for weed, but I wasnt caught with anything on me, I usually sold weed, coke, speed, vikodin, shrooms, acid and X on occasion. I myself have done all those and more pretty much everything except for Herion and Crack has been in my body. Now I had kept a clean and low profile up until Id say about April, as a senior we had one week when while the Juniors were doing th MCAST we didnt have to come in until 11am each morning for a week. The last day of this week I had to go in at the usual time, so I made plans with friends that once we got to school we'ed just go off and hang out some up drink some beers and head back for an easy day of class. One of the kids I went with was Named Eric, Eric was the first friend I made at my new high school and we were pretty tight through the entire 4 years there, Eric, while drinking and smoking starts doing Inhalents with the keyboard cleaner spray. Dumbass. He had stolen the spray from a Walmart and even after he went back to school he kept doing it, he went through the entire can. Then Passed out in the boys bathroom. Now hes found taken to the nurse and of course questioned, Whos Name comes up? Mine. Twice now Ive been ratted out and thrown into the fire by people I once thought to be friends, the school didnt even question me I was already on probation and they once again expelled me. My grades were good enough to graduate so I have my diploma and my degree in Computer Aided Drafting which was my Shop class that I had taken. I wasnt allowed to walk on stage or attend any of my senior class activities.
The Court gave me two and a half years probation with an $800 court fees, 500 hours of community service, bi-weekly drug test and mandatory drug and alchol classes, which included AA, NA and Anger Mangement, and another drug class, all of which had dues and fees so I was pretty broke by the time all this was done, and to be honest money problems have stuck with me since.

Now I can say that if it wasnt for the fact that these people fucked me over my life would have taken a different turn and I would be in a better place right now. The fact is though, is that If I wasnt doing that shit in the first place it wouldnt have happend at all, and the bottom line is I cant blame anyone else but me and I do, I dont hold those people responsible for my life. I did beat the ever living shit out of Eric after it happend that made me feel better.
With everything happening I made some Major life changes, I stopped doing everything for my entire probation, the last thing I wanted to do is to mess up and get either more years of probation or jail. I had to cut my friends that I had gone through high school with out of my life, friends that I had spent almost every moment with, and I have no regrets about that at all, I know if I stayed friends with them it would have gotten me in trouble. I reunited with old friends and made new ones and they are some of the most important people in my life right now, but I would only say that I have 7 friends, I dont trust everyone I met, and though theres tons of people I enjoy being around I dont call them friends, I dont want to count on them for anything and because of this I can just like anyone else Ive had in my life cut them right out. Easy come Easy go.
Im not a person who opens up easy to people and my real friends really all ready know all this stuff about me. I care about them more then other people, if I come off like an asshole if we met or talk, its because I am, Im a pretty warm guy but I have no problem saying what I want to say, If you burn me or piss me off enough I dont need to be around you. If its something you cant deal with then thats why I would never call you friend.

If you made it all the way through this shit, I owe you a cookie.