WHO THE FUCK AM I?
I'm tempted to answer myself with "I'm the Juggernaut, bitch!", but that would be slightly off topic and I'm certainly not in the mood.
No, seriously, I don't know who I am. I'm absolutely obsessed with music, particularly heavy/death metal, screamo, etc... the biggest turnon for me is piercings, bar none... and I'm a sucker for ink on a girl, and love to see awesome art regardless of who it's on. Well, that's all a part of me I guess...
But then I sit here, and most of my day has been wasted away chatting away on irc about any number of the most hardcore geek topics of conversation that you can imagine, from a debate on the losslessness of the FLAC audio codec to what operating system I will run my new server on.
And now out of left field, my metabolism is slowing down and I'm starting to actually work out and I know I want to be in shape, and this isn't something that fits with the typical computer nerd lifestyle.
I want to be me, but I don't know what me is... I want to be this hardcore metal head but at the same time I want to be a total geek too and fit in some time to work off this metabolism issue that has snuck up on me.
I don't know what I want, but I dream of finding someone just like me, someone that [for a change] understands who I am. I don't know that I ever will, and that scares me. And then I see so many people on this site, and sometimes I just can't come here anymore for awhile. It hurts to know that these people exist all around me and I don't know any of them. Maybe it's Alaska... getting out of here will be good.
I'm 22 years old and I'm still a virgin b/c I always believed that I wanted my first to be with someone I loved. I've had the opportunity to give that up in the past and yet I persist on this pipe dream that my perfect girl will come along and turn my world upside down someday. I think I'm starting to finally see it for what it was all along... a pipe dream.
Wow, this is a really long blog. I'm going to stop here. Hope anyone that reads this is doing better than I.
I'm tempted to answer myself with "I'm the Juggernaut, bitch!", but that would be slightly off topic and I'm certainly not in the mood.
No, seriously, I don't know who I am. I'm absolutely obsessed with music, particularly heavy/death metal, screamo, etc... the biggest turnon for me is piercings, bar none... and I'm a sucker for ink on a girl, and love to see awesome art regardless of who it's on. Well, that's all a part of me I guess...
But then I sit here, and most of my day has been wasted away chatting away on irc about any number of the most hardcore geek topics of conversation that you can imagine, from a debate on the losslessness of the FLAC audio codec to what operating system I will run my new server on.
And now out of left field, my metabolism is slowing down and I'm starting to actually work out and I know I want to be in shape, and this isn't something that fits with the typical computer nerd lifestyle.
I want to be me, but I don't know what me is... I want to be this hardcore metal head but at the same time I want to be a total geek too and fit in some time to work off this metabolism issue that has snuck up on me.
I don't know what I want, but I dream of finding someone just like me, someone that [for a change] understands who I am. I don't know that I ever will, and that scares me. And then I see so many people on this site, and sometimes I just can't come here anymore for awhile. It hurts to know that these people exist all around me and I don't know any of them. Maybe it's Alaska... getting out of here will be good.
I'm 22 years old and I'm still a virgin b/c I always believed that I wanted my first to be with someone I loved. I've had the opportunity to give that up in the past and yet I persist on this pipe dream that my perfect girl will come along and turn my world upside down someday. I think I'm starting to finally see it for what it was all along... a pipe dream.
Wow, this is a really long blog. I'm going to stop here. Hope anyone that reads this is doing better than I.
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