tehpeanut

wow things just keep on coming...what a shock...first the break up, then having to find a place to live, then my school still isnt paid for, then i find out my hard drive crashed and lost everything, theni lost my best friend, then i found out that my grandpa is in icu for the past week, and then today i find out he has cancer all over his body and they arent doing any treament because it wouldnt do any good...so he is going to die...and im 8 hours away and dont even get to tell him goodbye or see him...when am i going to get a break when are things going to look up for me...what do i have to do...whats going to happen next to make me break...this is when i would want him here even though he has been a complete dick for the past month...he used to know what to do to make me at ease...now we arent even on speaking terms and if i did call him then i dont even know if he would make me feel better or worse...if he would be the old person and act like my best friend or the new one and say suck it up!


how much is one person suppose to handle by themselves without go over board... bf the hurricane i would be able to handle everything but now im tollerence is shit...im not back to myself like i was before...people think ive accepted that but i havent...i havent delt with it yet...i dont grip over it and i dont think about or talk about it but its there...and its making me a weaker person...things get to me easier...i hate it...