tehpeanut

since nothing good has accually happened to me lately i dont know how this entry is going to go...i just had an amazing convo with a group of ppl that was heartfelt...it made me think of some things that happened in my past and us them to help another...im amazed at some of the friendships that i have made on here...ppl i can relate too and feel comfortable talking to...the only person i have to talk to right now is shortchanged and he isnt always available...even though we live together we dont have much privacy with one another to hold convos with...


i am still in kind of a slump..i wish i could get out of it and feel better...feel normal...i know everyone is able to see it...i even had a request but someone for me to leave...this particular person doesnt want me staying in this house...it hurt when i heard him say that...now im trying my hardest to avoid him in everyway possible...he doesnt want me he and i dont want to be around him...


for the first time in my life i am dreading the holidays....this is the first time i wont get to see my mom for christmas...and i know being here they are not going to compensate for that....


sorry so long...thanks to those who read the whole thing