Stepping further into crazy.
this morning, when i awoke, all the color was gone. i could still see it, sort of, but it was like watching a B&W film, my mind filled in the color that *should* have been there.
a little voice told me, "it will make it easier for you to find her. when you see her, there will be color."
i rolled over, pulled the covers over my head, and for the first time ever, experienced complete darkness. none of the swirling patterns on the back of my eyelids, no speckles of color like bad pixels on a plasma screen. complete darkness. after a moment, though i'm certain i was awake (i still had conscious thought and movement), i was dreaming. i saw a kitchen window with vases, a doorway, a girls hair (razor bangs and a ponytail, black), along with a few other things, and heard in the news that bill gates had offed himself after his wife left him.
weird shit.
i'd better drink that memory gone.
this morning, when i awoke, all the color was gone. i could still see it, sort of, but it was like watching a B&W film, my mind filled in the color that *should* have been there.
a little voice told me, "it will make it easier for you to find her. when you see her, there will be color."
i rolled over, pulled the covers over my head, and for the first time ever, experienced complete darkness. none of the swirling patterns on the back of my eyelids, no speckles of color like bad pixels on a plasma screen. complete darkness. after a moment, though i'm certain i was awake (i still had conscious thought and movement), i was dreaming. i saw a kitchen window with vases, a doorway, a girls hair (razor bangs and a ponytail, black), along with a few other things, and heard in the news that bill gates had offed himself after his wife left him.
weird shit.
i'd better drink that memory gone.
oh, well. there's nothing for it. best get back to drinking.