hello from me.
today was disney land. my first time ever going to disney anything and it was amazing. im not such a fan of kids but i was so ennamored by the whole place that they didn't bother me at all. we ate amazing food, went on the best rides, walked, talked and i didn't kill any children. it was amazing.
i've had a really awesome time here these past few days. i quit fast food (6 days now), went bowling, saw good friends, had my first hollywood hills party, had someone sing me a lullaby and of course, went to disney land...
yeah i've said it before but im going to miss california so fucking much. i already do and i havent even left yet. ill be back, im sure of it. if i feel the way i do right now then i will be back for sure. and who knows, with me and my flakeyness and incapability of being able to stay in one place for longer than 2 months maybe ill be back in january?
so, i've been bummed out lately which isent like me at all (if you've met me you'd know). i've been drinking alot to kind of hide these 'feelings' in the bottom of bottles and yeah ok so it works temporarily but i mean, i still wake up the next day feeling like shit and questioning myself about every move that i make which i NEVER used to do. I've never been like this, so fucking girly and retarded... i mean come on. Honestly its rediculous. BUT, i think i've figured out where its been coming from and im fixing it.
I think that im going to be alright from here on. I think that as soon as i get back i will see all those firmiliar faces and just know again. Ill go to ciao with my friends and dance all night, drink coffee for an hour everymorning at shanghai, see chloe who will knock my sanity right back into me right away... Of course, before I get there, there are problems that need to be resolved here but now that i know where this feeling is coming from and what its feeding off... i feel better already. (then again i've also just finished corona numero uno).
no, but seriously... i got it, i know what it is, its going to be ok. im going to be better in no fucking time. back to regular old gross, farting, burping, loud, secure, happy me. i've missed me... and im sure those of you who have listened to me bitch and cry are thanking god that im goign to be normal again.
anyway. i've got a day and a half left here in this ever so fantastic state and i am overwhelmed by all the plans that i think i've made and that i want to make with people before i go. uhh... im going to make some phone calls tomorrow. yep.
i missing san fran like a crazy person but i'll be back there, its too nice and the girls are too hot for me not to be back
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toronto, mom, dad, friends, queen west, java hut, shanghai, ethiopian food, ttc, ciao, tangos, kareoke, expedition, tequila bookworm, brisk air, work... oh my jesus... i can taste it. its fucking SCREAMING at me.
a photo? oui:
as much as im going to miss california, i have to tell myself...
im going home.
finally, a home.
xo.
t.
today was disney land. my first time ever going to disney anything and it was amazing. im not such a fan of kids but i was so ennamored by the whole place that they didn't bother me at all. we ate amazing food, went on the best rides, walked, talked and i didn't kill any children. it was amazing.
i've had a really awesome time here these past few days. i quit fast food (6 days now), went bowling, saw good friends, had my first hollywood hills party, had someone sing me a lullaby and of course, went to disney land...
yeah i've said it before but im going to miss california so fucking much. i already do and i havent even left yet. ill be back, im sure of it. if i feel the way i do right now then i will be back for sure. and who knows, with me and my flakeyness and incapability of being able to stay in one place for longer than 2 months maybe ill be back in january?
so, i've been bummed out lately which isent like me at all (if you've met me you'd know). i've been drinking alot to kind of hide these 'feelings' in the bottom of bottles and yeah ok so it works temporarily but i mean, i still wake up the next day feeling like shit and questioning myself about every move that i make which i NEVER used to do. I've never been like this, so fucking girly and retarded... i mean come on. Honestly its rediculous. BUT, i think i've figured out where its been coming from and im fixing it.
I think that im going to be alright from here on. I think that as soon as i get back i will see all those firmiliar faces and just know again. Ill go to ciao with my friends and dance all night, drink coffee for an hour everymorning at shanghai, see chloe who will knock my sanity right back into me right away... Of course, before I get there, there are problems that need to be resolved here but now that i know where this feeling is coming from and what its feeding off... i feel better already. (then again i've also just finished corona numero uno).
no, but seriously... i got it, i know what it is, its going to be ok. im going to be better in no fucking time. back to regular old gross, farting, burping, loud, secure, happy me. i've missed me... and im sure those of you who have listened to me bitch and cry are thanking god that im goign to be normal again.
anyway. i've got a day and a half left here in this ever so fantastic state and i am overwhelmed by all the plans that i think i've made and that i want to make with people before i go. uhh... im going to make some phone calls tomorrow. yep.
i missing san fran like a crazy person but i'll be back there, its too nice and the girls are too hot for me not to be back
.
toronto, mom, dad, friends, queen west, java hut, shanghai, ethiopian food, ttc, ciao, tangos, kareoke, expedition, tequila bookworm, brisk air, work... oh my jesus... i can taste it. its fucking SCREAMING at me.
a photo? oui:
as much as im going to miss california, i have to tell myself...
im going home.
finally, a home.
xo.
t.
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nyc is boring the shit out of me