tegan

its blood hot in here today.
i got fans going and its not helping me out too much.

i better suck it up now. aparenly its 3 degrees in toronto. i have no idea what im going to do. i dont have any jackets, i dont have more than 2 sweaters, i dont even really own a good pair of shoes for rain & snow. im fucked.

im not looking forward to going through all my old shit. half at my mothers, half in my fatehrs barn. its all such a pain in the ass. everything is a pain in the ass... no one wants to do anything they dont have to. i guess neither do i but sometimes i bite the bullet and do it anyway.

i ate a banana today. how good am i at eating healthy? awe yeah. hehehe... no fast food for 5 days.

sometimes i think im going to be single for the rest of my life. im going to be that old woman in a little shack somewhere with a bottle of moonshine and like 15 cats. all of them named kitty. im going to have a wooden cane that im going to beat little children with and my vagina is going to seal up by the time im like 50. yeah, im going to be that old bag. and fuck you if you dont like it.



i drink to forget...

tonight, im drinking heavily.

one stipulation, i need to stay away from my journal when im drunk...

too much truth.


xo.
t.

p.s i have a REALLY bad knot in my back, it hurts to tilt my head.