teddydog

I was talking to a friend of mine today who's a psychology student. She was telling me about how she's doing forensic at the moment and learning about sex offenders and what leads them to do it.
It made me feel sick.
I've never reacted that way before to a simple conversation. Rape is one thing that makes me feel sick to the stomach. I don't want to know anything about the"inner workings" of a sex offender's mind.
She was talking about how they usually started off as a victim of somekind. Child abuse. Neglective parents. Traumatic life events.
I didn't want to fucking know. To give them some kind of excuse. To me, it doesn't matter what kind of shit you went through, there is no fucking excuse or reason to abuse another person like that. By saying these people had a traumatic past seems to somehow let them off the hook for their own attrocities. I'm my opinion they should be locked up forever. I don't want to understand them.
Maybe it's because rape is a subject that frightens me so much. It's the underlying, subconscious reason why I'll always choose to sit next to a woman on the bus or train. The reason why I'll quicken up if a bloke is walking beind me in the dark. The reason I'll never leave my drink alone in a club.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not frightened of men and I definately don't think they all want to rape me. I have more male friends than females. But if I'm alone tI do have a certain fear of a male stranger that isn't present if its a girl.
Sorry this is such a nasty subject, I just got thinking and had to let it out somewhere.
I got the job.
Start on monday.