tedbedlam

My body floated without a spine
Just a brain
a heart
two arms and
two legs nestled about a pile of
guts and blood and balls and
thin skin

I knew how to love
to shit to learn to
fuck to
speak
but hovered
never understanding
how to stand up
and be brave
to put those fists
brains, shit and words
to good use
balls...
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Re-iterating the fact that I hate 90% of people over fifty. Survival is not what it once was. Neither are ticket prices, technology, or immigration policies. Some lady made nasty faces at me for not agreeing with her that interracial couples are disgusting and should be locked away in zoos as bad examples. I wanted to break her gristly little fingers and make out with...
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A lot of people (and by this I mean an estimated 90% of the people I know in addition to non-respected acquaintances) have encouraged me to use the obvious facilities which I have access to in order to defeat drug tests. On the other hand, I made a promise to two people in my family that I would not. This isn't really so much a...
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Dollars dollars dollars and obedience. Dollars and dolere, money and pain. Funny how things go together. So soak soak soak it up su su sudio because the stutter is something I don't need. Obedience, however, I give only to myself, my ideals and those I care for. Soon within the year I will be free.

Things thought late at night:

There is a rage in me. Like a burning saint, neither benign nor a cancer, it teaches me from the echoes of the screams inside my soul. The wills that have seen fit to restrict me have never known an enemy such as I. How terrible I may become before my body is burned as a corpse. How wonderful will...
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National Museum of Patriotism wants me to do a tour video for them (no pay, of course) which might be fun. Funny thing though as my first intention when I am able is to leave the country. I suppose one can be a patriot to the original ideal without abiding by the geography or the outcome. A patriot expatriate? Tender tender resignation, so soft and...
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Follow-up: The swine-herd left one piggy out of the courtroom. License re-instated.

One month. One shitburg month. One cocksucking useless anti-political sober month. ALS hearing tomorrow. Hopefully the cop doesn't show. Then my legal problems are reduced by half. If not, my clever-as-he-is-expensive lawyer will finagle the court case to a second date to force the swime into a minor "fuck you" of show up for another unpaid day of court. And I'm all about saying fuck...
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Blight has gathered
Guest at the door
Knock knock knocking
At brittle bone
Teeth will shatter
Bounced off the cold
Re-imagine
Arms to make us whole


Not sure where that was going but I figured I'd write it. Thank god I put down poetry and took up... I don't know. Basically I put down poetry and did some different shit. Being a jackass? Well I...
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Narcissism is an essential human trait, a survival method meant to deter the emotional rigors of the social lifespan. If we were smart enough not to like ourselves or to recognize the issues with what we do, we would probably all be dead. This does not preclude the existence of contradictory influences like guilt, shame, etc. All are built into the premise of the continuance...
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