tedbedlam

I did something potentially stupid tonight but it proved to me I want to ask Alex for exclusivity. She makes me happy, makes me smarter, makes me work towards my potential instead of away from it. We still have some kinks to work out but I really like her. I don't know how I'm going to deal with moving away but I suppose we'll discuss that as time goes on. I'm really nervous and had to tell a white lie to her tonight I feel bad about and which could have led to something really stupid, but it allowed me to see that I really like Alex more than I could anybody else right now and for a long long time. Anyway /mushiness. I just want to go to bed so that I can talk to her in the morning. Too nervous. Not gonna happen.