It is amazing how the simplest things like love, compation and understanding can change your whole outlook on life. The hard part is finding someone who can offer those simple things freely and unselfishly. Well, i was lucky enough to find those very things recently and she makes me free to giver the same. Happy even. I first met her 2 years ago and unfortunatly I was no way ready to offer myself due to a very nasty divorce. But I knew she meant enough to me to not make her a quick one nighter or a rebound and I let her go. And after 2 years of much self healing and personal discovery I was able to know that if I didn't find her and try I would hate myself for ever. So I found her on Facebook and have spent the last 5 blistfull nights on yahoo talking to her and realizing that I did make the right decision, and now she is the most important thing to me right now. It was real kizmet. I didn't have much to go back home to after leaving this country and this war, but that is no longer the case. And the best part is she is going to drive from Albuquerque to El Paso and greet my when I get off the plane. It is the best gift I could ask for and she has selfishly given it to me. Thank you, my Kitten. And I'm sory I had to be a ding dong for you. I never believed the old addige that if you truely love someone you must let them go, and if it was meant to be they will come back. But now I am a believer.