Well its been awhile. I am back in school and living in a little apartment with my buddy. I love this place. The town is pretty cool and the school seems to be populated with attractive women. I mean it is like heaven. SIU had nothing on this place, I swear its unreal.
I started classes and love all of my teachers. They are very cool, hip, and outgoing. One of them is a little dry for the class but I think he will make a good teacher. He teaches the Sociology of Religion course I enrolled in.
My other teachers are very cool and fun. They joke around a lot and encourage discussion. I will enjoy the courses a lot I suspect.
Well Jenny kind of broke my heart. I guess when we were joking around about sex and candy underwear it was ok. She put something pretty suggestive on my profile and I posted a response. We were laughing about it over AIM and she knew it was there. Well last Sunday she was pissed about it because her fiance saw it (yes they are going to try and work it out) and she had me delete it. Apparently it was my fault somehow. After awhile she admitted that it was nobody's fault in particular(it is her fiances fault in my eyes, cause he is a jealous asshole).
Then she said we cant talk over the phone anymore. He said that she is not supposed to talk to me at all. THis really pisses me off and I pretended like it was cool but the truth is I am hurt. We can talk over AIM but she is rarely on and when she is she signs off when I IM her. Then later in the night like around 2:00 am she will IM me back. Usually I am sleeping by that time. Or in the case of last night I was cooking sausages with my rooomate and I missed it. When I responded it was like 30 minutes later. And she didnt respond.
I feel very hurt. I told her that if she is happy with him and he forces her to choose between me and him, then to choose him. I would rather see her happy but I will have to admit I would be very hurt. I just feel like she used me for a week to feel good and as an emotional crutch. Now I am the one hurting and feeling lonely again. Cause during that time when she was talking to me I felt like I was walking on water. I felt happy and was smiling a lot. I looked forward to talking to her. Now I want to talk to her but I dont get a chance because she wont return my phone calls or she will IM me back at some ungodly hour.
I hope that she will dump this asshole for good. I really do. He does not deserve her at all. She says she still wants to be my friend and that no matter what she will but I feel like she abandoned me. I dont want to have to sneak around her boyfriend or to cause any trouble in their relationship. I want them to break up but I dont want to be the cause of that. Simply because she will resent me for it, or I think she might. I would rather let her fiance fuck it up, and I suspect he will, so that I am in the clear. He is an asshole by nature, or that is the impression I got from Jenny. And people follow their natures so it will come in time. But nonetheless I still wish he would hurry.
I guess I am a little obsessive with this girl. The truth is she is the first girl I ever loved and ever fell in love with. She was by my side when a lot of things went down and I felt like suicide was a better choice than waking up in the morning. Very few people have ever touched me like she has and I have not really found anyone who can compare to her. Jenny is the standard that I measure every girl with and only one has come close to her in my opinion. That was Jana, but she lives in Germany and has a girlfriend (got to love hot German bisexual women) as well as she seems happy. And she does not know how I feel about her. So when I look around and I look back at the life I have lead I can see Jenny's influence everywhere in my life. And I remember all the good she has done me. So I still wait for her. Besides not many women are interested in a fat hairy bastard who is uncouth and unafraid to speak his mind. I will allow her to figure out that her fiance is an asshole and really not for her.
Anyways I have been back in school and living it up. There was some trouble opening a bank account but that is all good now. I found a job on campus which is cool so I will have something to do. I will be cashiering in the food court on Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday, and alternationg Sundays. It pays minimum wage but it is enough. I work for 3 hours a shift so I will not have much money but it is something to do and make a little spending cash.
Anyways I have to get some homework done. I will be watching the Bears kill the fucking Saints and continue their march to the Super Bowl.
Anyways I hope everyone is doing well.
Cheers.
Tecumseh
I started classes and love all of my teachers. They are very cool, hip, and outgoing. One of them is a little dry for the class but I think he will make a good teacher. He teaches the Sociology of Religion course I enrolled in.
My other teachers are very cool and fun. They joke around a lot and encourage discussion. I will enjoy the courses a lot I suspect.
Well Jenny kind of broke my heart. I guess when we were joking around about sex and candy underwear it was ok. She put something pretty suggestive on my profile and I posted a response. We were laughing about it over AIM and she knew it was there. Well last Sunday she was pissed about it because her fiance saw it (yes they are going to try and work it out) and she had me delete it. Apparently it was my fault somehow. After awhile she admitted that it was nobody's fault in particular(it is her fiances fault in my eyes, cause he is a jealous asshole).
Then she said we cant talk over the phone anymore. He said that she is not supposed to talk to me at all. THis really pisses me off and I pretended like it was cool but the truth is I am hurt. We can talk over AIM but she is rarely on and when she is she signs off when I IM her. Then later in the night like around 2:00 am she will IM me back. Usually I am sleeping by that time. Or in the case of last night I was cooking sausages with my rooomate and I missed it. When I responded it was like 30 minutes later. And she didnt respond.
I feel very hurt. I told her that if she is happy with him and he forces her to choose between me and him, then to choose him. I would rather see her happy but I will have to admit I would be very hurt. I just feel like she used me for a week to feel good and as an emotional crutch. Now I am the one hurting and feeling lonely again. Cause during that time when she was talking to me I felt like I was walking on water. I felt happy and was smiling a lot. I looked forward to talking to her. Now I want to talk to her but I dont get a chance because she wont return my phone calls or she will IM me back at some ungodly hour.
I hope that she will dump this asshole for good. I really do. He does not deserve her at all. She says she still wants to be my friend and that no matter what she will but I feel like she abandoned me. I dont want to have to sneak around her boyfriend or to cause any trouble in their relationship. I want them to break up but I dont want to be the cause of that. Simply because she will resent me for it, or I think she might. I would rather let her fiance fuck it up, and I suspect he will, so that I am in the clear. He is an asshole by nature, or that is the impression I got from Jenny. And people follow their natures so it will come in time. But nonetheless I still wish he would hurry.
I guess I am a little obsessive with this girl. The truth is she is the first girl I ever loved and ever fell in love with. She was by my side when a lot of things went down and I felt like suicide was a better choice than waking up in the morning. Very few people have ever touched me like she has and I have not really found anyone who can compare to her. Jenny is the standard that I measure every girl with and only one has come close to her in my opinion. That was Jana, but she lives in Germany and has a girlfriend (got to love hot German bisexual women) as well as she seems happy. And she does not know how I feel about her. So when I look around and I look back at the life I have lead I can see Jenny's influence everywhere in my life. And I remember all the good she has done me. So I still wait for her. Besides not many women are interested in a fat hairy bastard who is uncouth and unafraid to speak his mind. I will allow her to figure out that her fiance is an asshole and really not for her.
Anyways I have been back in school and living it up. There was some trouble opening a bank account but that is all good now. I found a job on campus which is cool so I will have something to do. I will be cashiering in the food court on Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday, and alternationg Sundays. It pays minimum wage but it is enough. I work for 3 hours a shift so I will not have much money but it is something to do and make a little spending cash.
Anyways I have to get some homework done. I will be watching the Bears kill the fucking Saints and continue their march to the Super Bowl.
Anyways I hope everyone is doing well.
Cheers.
Tecumseh
LoL, I don't even know if my sisters smoke pot anymore... it was a weird thing for my uptight cousin to say.
I haven't been on SG in days and days, so please forgive this late reply!