Work sucked. When I got there nothing had been done. They chewed me out becuase I did not clean the fucking toilet!!! He said it looked as if nobody had cleaned it in days. Which is probably true. But I was off for the 2 days prior to that so why didnt he chew them out. This was fucking humiliating.
I ran into a kid I went to high school with. (one of the schools at least). He is a teacher at our old high school now. He had went to law school and decided to quit after his 2nd year. HE has his masters as well. To top it off he was one of the asshole prep motherfuckers in high school. Doesnt everyone get angry when they find someone they dont like is more successful than they are? But one thing I do remember is that him and his friends were afraid of me and my friends. So at least I got that going for me...
Anyways I was humiliated because here I am doing nothing with my life right now. I often think that I should not have dropped out and basically did the shit they wanted me to. But nonetheless I would have graduated high school at 22 because I was so far behind.
I often wonder what life would have been like had I done things "right". I do know that Confucious was right when he said "Living well is the best revenge." But I realize that I am the man I am today because of the choices I made then. I am not ashamed of what I do... not really. It is annoying but I can look someone in the eye and tell them I scrubbed a toilet to earn my pay. Can't I? I know that a lot of people I went to high school with feel they are superior because life was better to them than me and my own. Yet I must not give up on my dreams.
It seems that as of late I have been depressed. I think it is becuase I dont see the sun much anymore. I really do. I put a blanket over my window and sleep most of the early morning and afternoon when the sun is up. Since winter has arrived now and the snow is on the ground I think I will see it even less. I have a few things to do such as send my immunization records to ISU. I sent the other things I needed to send out which is a huge load off of my mind. But it seems like more and more shit just keeps coming.
Anyways I must be going to bed soon. After the X-Files finishes I will try and pass out. My nights have become Starcraft or Rise of Nations online and then I blog here on SG. After that I am going to fall asleep to a tv show. I dont know what I will watch tonight? Perhaps LOST again? Miami Vice? Or X-Files as my last choice. Probably pop in Munich and watch that. I really enjoy that movie.
Well I said I am out and I am.
Cheers to all of my faithful readers. I will leave you with a quote...
I ran into a kid I went to high school with. (one of the schools at least). He is a teacher at our old high school now. He had went to law school and decided to quit after his 2nd year. HE has his masters as well. To top it off he was one of the asshole prep motherfuckers in high school. Doesnt everyone get angry when they find someone they dont like is more successful than they are? But one thing I do remember is that him and his friends were afraid of me and my friends. So at least I got that going for me...
Anyways I was humiliated because here I am doing nothing with my life right now. I often think that I should not have dropped out and basically did the shit they wanted me to. But nonetheless I would have graduated high school at 22 because I was so far behind.
I often wonder what life would have been like had I done things "right". I do know that Confucious was right when he said "Living well is the best revenge." But I realize that I am the man I am today because of the choices I made then. I am not ashamed of what I do... not really. It is annoying but I can look someone in the eye and tell them I scrubbed a toilet to earn my pay. Can't I? I know that a lot of people I went to high school with feel they are superior because life was better to them than me and my own. Yet I must not give up on my dreams.
It seems that as of late I have been depressed. I think it is becuase I dont see the sun much anymore. I really do. I put a blanket over my window and sleep most of the early morning and afternoon when the sun is up. Since winter has arrived now and the snow is on the ground I think I will see it even less. I have a few things to do such as send my immunization records to ISU. I sent the other things I needed to send out which is a huge load off of my mind. But it seems like more and more shit just keeps coming.
Anyways I must be going to bed soon. After the X-Files finishes I will try and pass out. My nights have become Starcraft or Rise of Nations online and then I blog here on SG. After that I am going to fall asleep to a tv show. I dont know what I will watch tonight? Perhaps LOST again? Miami Vice? Or X-Files as my last choice. Probably pop in Munich and watch that. I really enjoy that movie.
Well I said I am out and I am.
Cheers to all of my faithful readers. I will leave you with a quote...
"They may promise to govern well, but they mean to govern.
They may promise to be good masters...but they mean to be masters."
I dont know who said it but I really like it. If anyone knows please tell me.
Cheers...
Tecumseh
Instead of getting angry at that guy, hopefully that provides some motivation for you to keep trying to get into schools and move ahead! It seems you are doing a lot of the right things to stay on track and better yourself and those are always good things.
Keep the faith.
Seeing others succeed can be tough, but I must agree with StrongBhoy up there. And Confucious might have been onto something too.