Well how is shit going. I dont think I have any readers at this point but soon I will.
I am so frustrated with college. Seattle, Las Vegas, and Philly are the cities I would not mind moving to. I have to decide on a collge.
Philly would be an amazing place to live. So much history, so many schools, and from what I hear a pretty good nightlife.
Las Vegas... well its Vegas. So many things to do and keep you occupied. The PD is hiring and pretty easy to get into. And UNLV is almost an assured thing for me to get into. And I know my friends would come visit me when breaks come around. And at times I really enjoy the weather that is prevalent out there.
Seattle is also an amazing place. It was my original choice on where to live. It looks like a lot of fun. Coffee shops, great weather (I LOVE THE RAIN!), and a really modern city. The University of Washington is a pretty good school and looks beautiful.
As for shit here... I am going crazy. I would like to be out of the house at this point and back in school. I will be getting out ASAP. I dont want to go back to SIU which I know is a point of contention with my mother, and will be with my father. I just really feel shitty when I am there. I have no friends there. Well no real friends. Meaning people that I truly relate to. I would just like to move somwhere and make it my home now. A place I know I will be for the next few years.
I have to find a way to get out of here by January. I want to leave IL for ahwile. I cannot decide on a school, or city, or what I really want in life.
The one thing I know I want in life is a nice girlfriend. I am lonely and just frustrated with life. It seems that the saying "Misery loves company" is a truism. Its impossible for a loser like me to find someone. I hate my life and am really ashamed of what I have become. If I could go back in time I would change a lot of things. It seems like I am being held back only by myself.
Sometimes I can blame society or others but the truth is most of these problems are my fault. I will have to dwell on it and think about life a little more.
I am so frustrated with college. Seattle, Las Vegas, and Philly are the cities I would not mind moving to. I have to decide on a collge.
Philly would be an amazing place to live. So much history, so many schools, and from what I hear a pretty good nightlife.
Las Vegas... well its Vegas. So many things to do and keep you occupied. The PD is hiring and pretty easy to get into. And UNLV is almost an assured thing for me to get into. And I know my friends would come visit me when breaks come around. And at times I really enjoy the weather that is prevalent out there.
Seattle is also an amazing place. It was my original choice on where to live. It looks like a lot of fun. Coffee shops, great weather (I LOVE THE RAIN!), and a really modern city. The University of Washington is a pretty good school and looks beautiful.
As for shit here... I am going crazy. I would like to be out of the house at this point and back in school. I will be getting out ASAP. I dont want to go back to SIU which I know is a point of contention with my mother, and will be with my father. I just really feel shitty when I am there. I have no friends there. Well no real friends. Meaning people that I truly relate to. I would just like to move somwhere and make it my home now. A place I know I will be for the next few years.
I have to find a way to get out of here by January. I want to leave IL for ahwile. I cannot decide on a school, or city, or what I really want in life.
The one thing I know I want in life is a nice girlfriend. I am lonely and just frustrated with life. It seems that the saying "Misery loves company" is a truism. Its impossible for a loser like me to find someone. I hate my life and am really ashamed of what I have become. If I could go back in time I would change a lot of things. It seems like I am being held back only by myself.
Sometimes I can blame society or others but the truth is most of these problems are my fault. I will have to dwell on it and think about life a little more.